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[xlifeishardx]

so lastnight i had this crazy dream. i wont go into what it was but i will say i woke up sooo comfortable and happy but then when i realized what in the dream made me feel so great i got really depressed and emo. i cant get it out of my mind and its retarded im retarded life is retarded love is retarded girls are retarded. basicly everything is retarded and sucks and i suck at it...but anyways school started this week and im already over it fucking school. im sitting at the school bored waiting for my next class to start but it dosnt start untill 1 and its like 11 now. not worth going home and not worth staying here...umm so the past week or so ive just been sitting at home except for the other night i hung out with sal and we got compleatly shit faced i dont even remember most of the night or how i got home/anything after i got home. i havnt seen the girls for sooo long or even talked to them. dont know whats up with that one. i think im starting to push away from people again and i dont want to do that cuz last time i did i lost almost all of my friends. but fuck it im getting soo stressed and pissed right now so im done...nevermind it went away.haha..nobody is online cuz they are all at school or work soooooo bored. i think ill go drink my beer i bought today and listen to music in my truck untill class...haha im such a peice of shit actually im more than just a peice im a huge pile not even that im a mound. actually more of a hill. no maybe closer to a mountain. speaking of mountain i cant wait untill the mountain opens ive been having such bad withdrawls from boarding..man i hope this winter is as good as they say its going to be cuz looooooooots of snow means looooooots of powder which means loooooots of natural hits which means adam going to the mountain everyday getting drunk and snowboarding..yessssss well whats new from everyday...just the boarding part....well i really want to go out tonight but i have to be at work at 5am tomorrow morning so hopefully people will want to go out tomorrow night and party with me...alright im just rambling about nothing and nobody will probably read this far so im done..hahaha...

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