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this was originaly written in myspace blog and i havnt reread it to see if it even makes sense but it was my mind talking so here you go
i see people being able to analize there suroundings so clearly and express what they are thinking so beautifully and it makes me wish i could let my mind go and just go its own way. sometimes i think this would make things soo much easier for me to be able to just lay it all out on the table. and not bottle things up for a lack of ways to express my thoughts. sometimes i think i will be able to get to this point at sometime in life because i already wear my heart on my sleeve. it just makes me jelouse i guess when i see things that communicate other peoples feelings so beautifully and clearly. its not really that im sad or depressed right now it really is just that i would like to be more creative and expressive. i guess for now i will just go on with what i am doing and hope that one day things will come together for me. the closest way i can express my self beautifully is buy music by finding a perfect song to show someone or everyone my true and most inner being. most people dont get to see inside the real me. this is because most people do not get the music i listen to and get the true meaning of the lyrics. most people just listen to the music and get whats on the face of it. i listen to music for the inner meaning and i can feel the artist heart and emotions and this inspires me. to me music isnt entertainment, it is life it is what i live for it runs through me and without music i wouldnt be much of anything i would be in a perminent daze never really living never really breathing just going through the steps of life. it makes me mad. well not really mad just sad that people dont get the music im into and just think oh its about broken hearts and killing yourself. but that is not true at all i actually feel sorry for those people because they cant compleatly feel the beauty of the music. this entry started off just about nothing and turned into my love for music. maybe its my soul telling to look for my inspiration in my music right now. im have the feeling i should go listen to the spill canvas right now its telling me to listen to 'so much' and that will send me on the right path for now. i dont know what it is but i have this special connection to that song and its been stronger latly. that song sets me off into a spiral of thought and wonder and i love it. i love how one song can have so many feelings and ideas in it. and the whole mood of the song can change by just what you are wanting out of it right now. i just love how the people i keep close in my life have some of the same thoughts about music as i do. i dont really know if theirs are as intense as mine and as powerful as mine but i hope they are because its the most wonderful thing. this was just going to be a short entry with no real depth however this music sent me into a wonderful spiraling dive of thought. and i really hope people will read this because it give a tiny peak into my inner most being!.......hopefully to be continued.
i see people being able to analize there suroundings so clearly and express what they are thinking so beautifully and it makes me wish i could let my mind go and just go its own way. sometimes i think this would make things soo much easier for me to be able to just lay it all out on the table. and not bottle things up for a lack of ways to express my thoughts. sometimes i think i will be able to get to this point at sometime in life because i already wear my heart on my sleeve. it just makes me jelouse i guess when i see things that communicate other peoples feelings so beautifully and clearly. its not really that im sad or depressed right now it really is just that i would like to be more creative and expressive. i guess for now i will just go on with what i am doing and hope that one day things will come together for me. the closest way i can express my self beautifully is buy music by finding a perfect song to show someone or everyone my true and most inner being. most people dont get to see inside the real me. this is because most people do not get the music i listen to and get the true meaning of the lyrics. most people just listen to the music and get whats on the face of it. i listen to music for the inner meaning and i can feel the artist heart and emotions and this inspires me. to me music isnt entertainment, it is life it is what i live for it runs through me and without music i wouldnt be much of anything i would be in a perminent daze never really living never really breathing just going through the steps of life. it makes me mad. well not really mad just sad that people dont get the music im into and just think oh its about broken hearts and killing yourself. but that is not true at all i actually feel sorry for those people because they cant compleatly feel the beauty of the music. this entry started off just about nothing and turned into my love for music. maybe its my soul telling to look for my inspiration in my music right now. im have the feeling i should go listen to the spill canvas right now its telling me to listen to 'so much' and that will send me on the right path for now. i dont know what it is but i have this special connection to that song and its been stronger latly. that song sets me off into a spiral of thought and wonder and i love it. i love how one song can have so many feelings and ideas in it. and the whole mood of the song can change by just what you are wanting out of it right now. i just love how the people i keep close in my life have some of the same thoughts about music as i do. i dont really know if theirs are as intense as mine and as powerful as mine but i hope they are because its the most wonderful thing. this was just going to be a short entry with no real depth however this music sent me into a wonderful spiraling dive of thought. and i really hope people will read this because it give a tiny peak into my inner most being!.......hopefully to be continued.