mental breakdown!
so i woke up extra early today because these are the last few hours of my FREE summer life. in 4 hours, band camp for King Philip starts. we have band camp 1pm-8:30pm all this week... then friday/saturday im traveling down the NJ to teach the bushwackers... saturday nite i'm driving back up to MA, and on Sunday i'm leaving for band camp AGAIN until the following sunday. (long trip!) then just 3 more days of freedom, a teacher's meeting, DCA FINALS in scranton PA, labor day, and school starts for the kiddies! ahhh. i haven't gotten them yet, but no first day jitters so far. interesting... am i getting used to this?
i'm only nervous for school because i haven't prepared 1 single thing for this school year yet, including dance company logistics and such... plus, im teaching a brand new class and i need to have a meeting with my department head supervisor to go over curriculum before the school year starts... and just thinking about all the things i have to do between now and the first day of school, when will i have time to have that meeting? ahhhhh. if i dont have a mental break down, i'll be shocked.
then there is the money issue.... ehhh, no comment. send donations IMMEDIATELY.
on a positive/non-80s "crying about it" note, i am proud to admit that i am a SIMPLE PLAN fan. i know it's so embarassing and also yet very funny at the same time but i haven't been able to stop listening to them on my Creativ Zen player. then again, im not surprised because i am a sucker for catchy pop music and cute boys. nothing has changed obviously. even tho the SIMPLE PLAN boys aren't very cute, just very androgynously gay. haha.
if you've ever had a crush (duh), do you sometimes have dreams of u two together? like maybe it's a sign for the future? well, i'm having dreams about my crush, but it's of him and another boy flirting with each other and me being sort of a voyeur. so i hope that's not a bad sign. haha. usually when i have dreams of being WITH my crush, nothing happens... so i'm hoping the opposite happens this time? or maybe i'll be able to control my feelings enough to just forget about him completely?
man this entry is way too serious. but i guess u really do spill the beans in the morning.
i'm only nervous for school because i haven't prepared 1 single thing for this school year yet, including dance company logistics and such... plus, im teaching a brand new class and i need to have a meeting with my department head supervisor to go over curriculum before the school year starts... and just thinking about all the things i have to do between now and the first day of school, when will i have time to have that meeting? ahhhhh. if i dont have a mental break down, i'll be shocked.
then there is the money issue.... ehhh, no comment. send donations IMMEDIATELY.
on a positive/non-80s "crying about it" note, i am proud to admit that i am a SIMPLE PLAN fan. i know it's so embarassing and also yet very funny at the same time but i haven't been able to stop listening to them on my Creativ Zen player. then again, im not surprised because i am a sucker for catchy pop music and cute boys. nothing has changed obviously. even tho the SIMPLE PLAN boys aren't very cute, just very androgynously gay. haha.
if you've ever had a crush (duh), do you sometimes have dreams of u two together? like maybe it's a sign for the future? well, i'm having dreams about my crush, but it's of him and another boy flirting with each other and me being sort of a voyeur. so i hope that's not a bad sign. haha. usually when i have dreams of being WITH my crush, nothing happens... so i'm hoping the opposite happens this time? or maybe i'll be able to control my feelings enough to just forget about him completely?
man this entry is way too serious. but i guess u really do spill the beans in the morning.