OMG...the shitty week never ends
so its now sunday..the start of a new week. i had hopes that this week would be much better than the last..but i was wrong! lets just hope the week started off bad and can only get better. today me and mike talked..it pretty much sounded like we are going to forget the whole two years we talked on the phone and just act like WE DON'T KNOW EACHOTHER...i know i am making this sound much worse than it is but thats just about what it feels like. i went to my work because i knew thats where amanda was and i was BALLING luckly my bosses are completely cool and allowed amanda to take a 10 and come comfort me so i would stop crying HAHA...i think ym work thought someone died. wow..tonight was terrible..i think i am in shock from everything thats happend..its like my heart has been completly ripped out..i don;t know how to feel anymore. i fell in love with him. and now its over..i don't know what to do :(