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so i don't really know what to write about right now but im going to anyways...well heres a start...i miss sass a ton. a lot more than i ever thought i would. i know that doesn't sound very nice but we were only together for a month and a half when he left, so it was hard to tell what was going become of it...at the same time, i still havent stopped loving michael..i feel so messed up when i have two guys going on at the same time..mine and michaels relationship is so different than mine and sass'. i guess sass was just the guy that i could actually GO to...physically. where as mike..we have the telephone. for me and mike its not hard having this long distance relationship/ 'Best'friends kinda thing. but im don't know how thats going to work out with me and sass...with the whole telephone thing. NO me and mike aren't going out but i know that if he came here..we would be together in a second. which is why i don't know what to do about this whole sass thing. the fact of me caring about sass isn't the issue. but i DO NOT want to hurt sass if in fact michael does come here this summer....i mean i don't want to pass up the opportunity of seeing the guy that i have been waiting for for the past two years. i want to be able to be affectionate but i do not want to hurt sass and i WILL NOT cheat on him. but how do i tell sass that in a light way!??!??! because no matter what i know im going to hurt him in this situation..and that sucks :(