A moral suicide which burns inside you, Never, will never let you out

[xlet_it_bleedx7]

Today was alright. Gym was alright, study hall intresting cause Jeremy knows the weirdest stories and facts. Science sucked I didn't wanna be in there. And geoff looked really sad. I still can't help feeling like shit. I haven't hurt this bad in such a long time. I don't understand how things can start to be ok and then your back to it again. I don't know what to say to everyone, who asks me whats wrong. Cause I don't know myself at all and I just wish that stuff like this never happened to me. It hurts to much, nothing feels right and I feel like such a fuck up and im trying to help people who need it but I can't or I feel like im not helping. Its so hard to be there for people and your trying to be there for yourself. I hate myself to much, to ever be there for myself. I just can't right now I don't feel it at all. And the fact that my mom asked me if I wanted to leave home and go live in like a group house, just hurts me. Home, truely is a hell I can't stand the people here and I never want to be here, but I don't want to get sent away and at school I feel like im about to cry and I feel so fake laughing when im sad. And someone likes me too..I never thought he would, its weird but I have no idea anymore...

And we both hope
This will pass by
Through are life lines
Standing broken

Come on tell me
You cant hurt me
Dont ignore the
Lies your bleeding

Entranced in noise
And words and phrases
All about you
Everyone was so right

I know something you dont know
You hid something obvious from me
I know something you'll never know
You hid something obvious from me

Envy sets in
And I hate you
For what you did
I will break you

Cry for help now
They cant hear you
Heres an offer
You cant refuse