I walk by you, you don't smile, or turn, you look d e a d.. what happened to the boy I used to know

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Today was boring and upsetting, I hate that place so much. I really missed leah today a lot, no hugs from her it didn't feel the same. I didn't get to talk to her at all. nothing really happened at school. In history I got a detention for when I said "O SHIT!!" I didn't no I said it that loud, I tried to blame it on sammi, but it didn't work. hes so dumb. He's like Frame, you going down the tubes when I have a 96. shawn v wrote me some love note, when I asked him why would he like me. It made me laugh, it was like your nice, cool, and pretty. And I make people laugh. woo. I was pissed that he moved on from sammi to me. It felt like a third grader wrote it, which by the way thats how old he acts. but it was nice im not really used to that stuff, I always think its a load of bullshit cause I hate myself so much, which by the way notice who its from lol. The people who like me, or at least tell me they do I never like back. But then again, look at me. I seriously need someone outside of school cause there is no hope in ours. I was gonna go over sammi's house and help her with the project but no parents were home..Tommorrows my birthday and im not looking forward to it. Every year im always yelled at or something bad happens. Maybe this year it will be okay for once, im hoping. Joe better give me my cds tommorrow but thanks again my emo badass homie lol

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gabby and I hugged and we fell on eachother again it was funny, but she stabbed herself and according to her there is blood and the teachers like "okay ladies" lol, I love that girl

these fingers so frail paint in my mind
scars down the back of my eyes
death walks with me alone tonight
the coldness whispers it's almost near
rest for soon it will be over
years flash before me
and I understand why i'm here
no one will ever know, as the pictures come clear
don't worry they tell me this feeling won't last forever