Shoot me where it hurts most
Well this week was filled of being sick, coughing up lungs, etc. And of course being sad. I keep thinking about someone, a lot and its really weird to me that I am. I just need to talk to them. Were leaving for flordia tommorrow for ten days, I was shocked that my mom wanted to go down there for so long usually we just do the 5 day thing. But I guess this is special cause :tear: cait's leaving next year and this is our last vacation together. And my mom is sick of Maine and wants to get away, which i can understand perfectly. Caitlin and I had a lot of talks together and it surprises me how different we are but exactly the same, I keep wishing that we were closer this year cause I needed her more then I thought. I'm just kind of worried. Because I seriously am always alone at my house, usually in my room listening to music or outside alone with music on.. and there will be no where to go for ten days, I will be surrounded by family with no where to go and trust me I will probably be really quiet. But im happy were going. Were going to No parks, which im happy about because its gonna be crowded cause its april vacation. But were going to cait's college, and im happy for her It sounds like its a good school for her. Were swimming with manatees and dolphins and going parasailing..that sort of thing. Im gonna miss my friends a lot yesterday, was funny I talked to carly, sammi, and gabby and I havent laughed that much in a long time. And im missing 4 days when we get back from vacation, so I will be behind. but i'll see you all on friday after vacation. I love you guys, im leaving 12 tommorrow.
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Night falls into a silent scream It's
empty except the words we left behind.
This is the end and now that I'm here
I don't fear this place at all.
Tell me that It'll be alright. The broken
glass kills the hurt inside I can't stay
(as I turn to shadows) with all my p a i n.
Cut me, with looks of penetrating
nightmares dripping with hope we left behind.
This is the end. and now that I'm here I can't
help but feel so scared.
Choke me,with words of regret I
will die before I leave tonight.
I shape these plastic memories.
Inside for fear or falling into this.
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Night falls into a silent scream It's
empty except the words we left behind.
This is the end and now that I'm here
I don't fear this place at all.
Tell me that It'll be alright. The broken
glass kills the hurt inside I can't stay
(as I turn to shadows) with all my p a i n.
Cut me, with looks of penetrating
nightmares dripping with hope we left behind.
This is the end. and now that I'm here I can't
help but feel so scared.
Choke me,with words of regret I
will die before I leave tonight.
I shape these plastic memories.
Inside for fear or falling into this.