i just want to break you down so badly..

[xlessthanzero]

so lately my life has consisted of either being at home during the week
then drinking at michael's on the weekend.

i like my weekends
but i long for something more, i'm just not sure what it is yet.

i'm not sure of anything right now
but i'm not happy and i'm hoping to fix that soon

i'll be moving pretty soon, i don't know where though
then i'll get a job that's close to me and just work

i think i just need to take everything step by step
i just wish i had the one person i could count on in my life right now

honestly, i know i wouldn't be so lost with him around
without him, my head is basically stuck in the clouds
i want a new start, one with him..but that'll never happen and it hurts.

it hurts to know that i lost the better half of me to someone else, and that i'll most likely never see him again. and no matter how much certain people want me to forget about him, i'll never stop loving him. ever.

you just don't understand.