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Dear Reader,
Last few days have been great. I haven't quit drinking alcohol, and i dont ever think im going to quit smoking. I am happy right now. So let me cover the last couple of days for you reader. Just the days that have left an impression on me.
December 23rd - Toms Party
Hmm, nothing out of the usual. Toms party was fun, just because i was talking to her. But it seems that alcohol made me look like an ass the rest of the night. I lost my wallet...heh, and some pride as always. I always promise not to drink again, but hell those are just empty promises. Why drink if I'm just gonna feel like crap, followed by more feeling like crap the next morning? Eh, who knows.
December 24th/25th
Kinda funny how Christmas didn't mean shit to me. Happy Holidays People =)....
December 26th
All too much fun. Had to be the BIGGEST cock fest of my life! Miguel, Cpt, Jokes, Jerson, Nick, Cowboy, Mike, Mark, and some other kid that I never got his name. And you know what, this guy is reading this right now and he is complaining like he always is. I had a good time. Got lost. Went to the show and saw Bum Ruckus for the last time. I had some good memories come back to me. Well, VERY long story short, we got lost...covered south florida. FUn FUn FUn. "I think she was an angel"...maybe she was jokes?
December 27th
People need to grow up. Actually scratch that. Dont grow up, you seem happier that way. Its just going to happen eventually. I guess im trying to push it...i dont think its happening for me just yet. Growing up doesnt mean having a beard...or being 18. Just having experience...experiencing EXPERIENCES!! It was really fun. Amazing how people can be entertained by doing absolutley nothing. Well, there was Vivee, Jokes, and Santi............angie couldn't make it. Im too much of a thug with no future apperantly. Only HALF right, angies mom. Walmart was fun. Maybe funner because im thinking about it in my head....shit maybe it wasnt even that fun. Didnt go to toms party, didnt really want to that night. Just felt like doing nothing. Went to blockbuster. Traveled across time to when we were 5 or 6. There was the bully, the cool kid, the little girl defending the little boys, and the little guy that never really had friends...eh, i hate playgrounds. Played a little b ball. Dont worry, we'll beat em next time vivee. i had a bad knee....mhmm.
December 28th
Went furniture shopping with vivee and a pregnant mom. Also fun. Played video games....green pac man is better than yellow pac man, saved the galaxy from the evil big bug thing, and raced the coolest indy race car out there. Got dropped off in one gate, got picked up in the next. Off to some pizzeria in i dont know where and i met like 20 people. Big table...dagget, fucking angry beaver haha. They seemed cool, i got to eat for free which was even cooler. It was fun. We told jokes, havent done that in a while. Salty Cokes. New People. Astonishing Ages. Free Pizza. Constant Smiles. Good Times. After, when the table for 20 that fit 22 left, Laura, Eric, Miguel, and I went to blockbuster. We rented Garden State and we rented Dummy. Garden State <3...yet to see dummy. These people had to go home. Rain CHeck PLEASE!!! So i guess we'll be watching them tomorrow. Not my money.
Im glad theyre memories because I feel like im growing up and leaving it behind. Im infatuated with the fact of leaving things behind, because at this point there really isnt anything i would want to take with me. Feelings, things, people... i want them to be memories if that makes any sense. Most things are better in memories anyways, even the worse things. Like something bad that happened....it sux while its happening but as a memory ure fine with it and you can learn things from it. Wow, no sense whatsoever. What im trying to say is that, yea i feel like these times sucked. And yea i know i have FUCKED up so badly... but hey, life lesson learned by going through it. I do believe that nothing ever goes my way. Ive gotten used to it, but i havent really accepted it. So you know what...theres no point of bitching about it. I just gotta laugh it up. I stopped being so dependent on something that isn't consistent. My happiness doesn't depend on stupid things anymore. Im tired of having happiness in such short segments. I want CONSISTENCY!! It just depends on me. Slowly but surely growing up. And soon...im leaving this all behind =).
oh and you know what... middle school = high school....just with more gossip and sluts.
Last entry by the way Reader. I dont need to tell everybody whats going on with my life, when all you have to do is ask. Of course save the pictures
Last few days have been great. I haven't quit drinking alcohol, and i dont ever think im going to quit smoking. I am happy right now. So let me cover the last couple of days for you reader. Just the days that have left an impression on me.
December 23rd - Toms Party
Hmm, nothing out of the usual. Toms party was fun, just because i was talking to her. But it seems that alcohol made me look like an ass the rest of the night. I lost my wallet...heh, and some pride as always. I always promise not to drink again, but hell those are just empty promises. Why drink if I'm just gonna feel like crap, followed by more feeling like crap the next morning? Eh, who knows.
December 24th/25th
Kinda funny how Christmas didn't mean shit to me. Happy Holidays People =)....
December 26th
All too much fun. Had to be the BIGGEST cock fest of my life! Miguel, Cpt, Jokes, Jerson, Nick, Cowboy, Mike, Mark, and some other kid that I never got his name. And you know what, this guy is reading this right now and he is complaining like he always is. I had a good time. Got lost. Went to the show and saw Bum Ruckus for the last time. I had some good memories come back to me. Well, VERY long story short, we got lost...covered south florida. FUn FUn FUn. "I think she was an angel"...maybe she was jokes?
December 27th
People need to grow up. Actually scratch that. Dont grow up, you seem happier that way. Its just going to happen eventually. I guess im trying to push it...i dont think its happening for me just yet. Growing up doesnt mean having a beard...or being 18. Just having experience...experiencing EXPERIENCES!! It was really fun. Amazing how people can be entertained by doing absolutley nothing. Well, there was Vivee, Jokes, and Santi............angie couldn't make it. Im too much of a thug with no future apperantly. Only HALF right, angies mom. Walmart was fun. Maybe funner because im thinking about it in my head....shit maybe it wasnt even that fun. Didnt go to toms party, didnt really want to that night. Just felt like doing nothing. Went to blockbuster. Traveled across time to when we were 5 or 6. There was the bully, the cool kid, the little girl defending the little boys, and the little guy that never really had friends...eh, i hate playgrounds. Played a little b ball. Dont worry, we'll beat em next time vivee. i had a bad knee....mhmm.
December 28th
Went furniture shopping with vivee and a pregnant mom. Also fun. Played video games....green pac man is better than yellow pac man, saved the galaxy from the evil big bug thing, and raced the coolest indy race car out there. Got dropped off in one gate, got picked up in the next. Off to some pizzeria in i dont know where and i met like 20 people. Big table...dagget, fucking angry beaver haha. They seemed cool, i got to eat for free which was even cooler. It was fun. We told jokes, havent done that in a while. Salty Cokes. New People. Astonishing Ages. Free Pizza. Constant Smiles. Good Times. After, when the table for 20 that fit 22 left, Laura, Eric, Miguel, and I went to blockbuster. We rented Garden State and we rented Dummy. Garden State <3...yet to see dummy. These people had to go home. Rain CHeck PLEASE!!! So i guess we'll be watching them tomorrow. Not my money.
Im glad theyre memories because I feel like im growing up and leaving it behind. Im infatuated with the fact of leaving things behind, because at this point there really isnt anything i would want to take with me. Feelings, things, people... i want them to be memories if that makes any sense. Most things are better in memories anyways, even the worse things. Like something bad that happened....it sux while its happening but as a memory ure fine with it and you can learn things from it. Wow, no sense whatsoever. What im trying to say is that, yea i feel like these times sucked. And yea i know i have FUCKED up so badly... but hey, life lesson learned by going through it. I do believe that nothing ever goes my way. Ive gotten used to it, but i havent really accepted it. So you know what...theres no point of bitching about it. I just gotta laugh it up. I stopped being so dependent on something that isn't consistent. My happiness doesn't depend on stupid things anymore. Im tired of having happiness in such short segments. I want CONSISTENCY!! It just depends on me. Slowly but surely growing up. And soon...im leaving this all behind =).
oh and you know what... middle school = high school....just with more gossip and sluts.
Last entry by the way Reader. I dont need to tell everybody whats going on with my life, when all you have to do is ask. Of course save the pictures