friday...what happen?
i dont know what happen to me tonight. im usually happy and excited on friday's but this day i was just sad and depressed for some reason. i dont know why and i wish i did to never take those steps again. i was just lonely for some reason and in a mood that no one could shake meout of. i think i had a like a midnight depression. i was thinking of all the bad things in life and everything i hated about myself. like how i want older friends or i need to find a girl. i gotta drive. college. everything, i hate it. i have a friend that i love dearly who goes though this same stage everyday of her life and iwish i could be there for her sooo much. i got a taste of how her life is tonight and that burden should never be put on her. esp her. i hope she knows that i will always be there to talk to no matter what. she comes first over soo many things and she has so many friends that love her as much as me. she doesnt read this maybe thats why i can talk like this. i wish i wasnt a pussy some times. but o well.