3:45and i cant sleep....
mii cOuzin,Vanessa, juss came frOm ft. myerz, lyke at arOund 12:oo.i*m sO bOred, hungrii, and i mizz mii babii. tOdai waz such a depressing daii. ereywun arOund meeh iz falling in lOve...i knO wut i feel fOr anthOny...but wut if i dOnt knO wut lOve is...and wut if he dOnt feel tha same fOr meeh?...i*ve realized dat u can*t MAKE aniiwun lOve u. u can juss give it ur all, and hOpe fOr tha bezt...dat sux.cuz wut if u give it ur all...and end up with nutthin.maybe dat*z whii dey call lOve a game...sOme ppl win, sOme ppl lOze.what*z tha pOint Of lyfe?iz it tO lOve, Or shOw sOmeOne else hOw tO lOve? i thiink tha purpOse Of lyfe iz tO shOw tha RIGHT persOn lOve...i*m kinda hOpin it*z anthOny...maybe u lOve a cOuple Of wrOng ppl,sO that wen u FINALLY dO find tha right persOn, u*ll knO hOw tO be greatful. and u*ll knO whO tha right persOn iz bcuz...u feel it.anthOny alwaiiz azkz meeh whii i lyke him...i waz talkiin abOut it wit verO tha Otha daii and i thiink tha reazOn whii i lyke him sO much...iz bcuz i dOnt knO whii i lyke him. i neva get sik Of talkiin tO him, Or abOut him,Or being wit him. and bcuz i lOve tha waii he makez meeh feel.tha truth iz, i dOnt knO the WHOLE reazOn whii i lyke him sO much. verO waz makiin fun Of meeh, bcuz i waz talkiin abOut him, and talkiin abOut whii i lyked him, and i didnt make sense, but i did at tha same tyme.lOlz, she waz seyin dat he*z gOt meeh, and she*z neva herd meeh talk abOut a nigguh lyke dat be4...lOlz, i sOund lyke such a dOrk...but i lyke him sO much.but i guesz we*ll see whut happenz...hOpefully he*ll feel tha same fOr meeh