hmm.
i have this horrible feeling that people think im pushing them away, not caring, expecting something from them, being bitchy, being stubburn.. et all.
im not.
i shut up or go cold because i freeze up.
or i say or do what i do because of what i feel inside.
i feel sick 24/7. emotionally.
no kick in the ass is gonna make me buck up my ideas and help me.
i'll just fall lower.
im pathetically fragile, but im not asking a thing from anyone.
because i come across as angsty, stubburn and a 'know it all'.
when in reality.
all i know is what im feeling right now.
i lost my boyfriend, bestest friend and soulmate in the same second, and i put my hands up and say im not dealing, anyone who cares, right now, i am not dealing okay..
it's so simple.
im a little girl, and im fucking scared.
but whatever, it's no ones problem except my own.
and ignorance is bliss and all that.
im not.
i shut up or go cold because i freeze up.
or i say or do what i do because of what i feel inside.
i feel sick 24/7. emotionally.
no kick in the ass is gonna make me buck up my ideas and help me.
i'll just fall lower.
im pathetically fragile, but im not asking a thing from anyone.
because i come across as angsty, stubburn and a 'know it all'.
when in reality.
all i know is what im feeling right now.
i lost my boyfriend, bestest friend and soulmate in the same second, and i put my hands up and say im not dealing, anyone who cares, right now, i am not dealing okay..
it's so simple.
im a little girl, and im fucking scared.
but whatever, it's no ones problem except my own.
and ignorance is bliss and all that.