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This is a really personal entry it dosnt have anthing to do with any1 perticular jsut thinking. Last Night i was cleaning out one of my closets and i found a bunch of old notes from old girlfriends and freidns and it crossed my mind that iam not freidns with almost any of them. And one person inperticualr i jsut miss so much bercasue for such a long period of time she ment everything to me and now i dont even have her as a friend. i jjsut came to the conclusion that iam a horrible friend and a horrible person ive lost so many freinds over the past couple of years and its really depressing becasue most of the time it was my fault. why am i like this why did i make so many mistakes why do i screw up so much. I miss so many people and i know ill never be able to be friends with them agian uhhh i hate myself for this <3