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Did alot of nothing... didnt do alot like i said i would do... for one not shave... i have no more hair on my face i shaved... i said school could goto hell and not do my work..but i did the stuff anyways.
I told myself I would bleed inside to forget who I am , but yet I will never forget you, or what I did to you. I tear apart inside me at your scars, and I wear them just so I know I have a heart. Even though you probably dont know who I am anymore...I still wish I could steal every ounce of pain from you....because you never deserved any of it, and I've known it from the start. Even though I have apologized time and time and time again, each with sincerity from the bottom of my heart, and this is the stupid internet, I'll say it not because I want you to feel guilty, or sad, or anything like that, I want to say I am truly sorry for shattering your heart, what seemed like a little mindless unleashing of inner anger, became the biggest tool in stealing something that you had alot of, your emotion towards me, and I can't think of any bigger suspect of being the thief that ripped it right out of you other than me.... and I can't say that I am completely not guilty because you heard the things I said. This long entry isn't to make you feel guilty, sad, or anything. Just know I am here, and I am human, and as long as I am here, I am here for you.
And now that I am tear-jerkin right now I think I am going to go to bed or something....because I am a nobody.
I feel lost.
I feel lonely.
Please God, give me the inspiration to do good, please?
I miss you Kim :/
Goodnight..
I told myself I would bleed inside to forget who I am , but yet I will never forget you, or what I did to you. I tear apart inside me at your scars, and I wear them just so I know I have a heart. Even though you probably dont know who I am anymore...I still wish I could steal every ounce of pain from you....because you never deserved any of it, and I've known it from the start. Even though I have apologized time and time and time again, each with sincerity from the bottom of my heart, and this is the stupid internet, I'll say it not because I want you to feel guilty, or sad, or anything like that, I want to say I am truly sorry for shattering your heart, what seemed like a little mindless unleashing of inner anger, became the biggest tool in stealing something that you had alot of, your emotion towards me, and I can't think of any bigger suspect of being the thief that ripped it right out of you other than me.... and I can't say that I am completely not guilty because you heard the things I said. This long entry isn't to make you feel guilty, sad, or anything. Just know I am here, and I am human, and as long as I am here, I am here for you.
And now that I am tear-jerkin right now I think I am going to go to bed or something....because I am a nobody.
I feel lost.
I feel lonely.
Please God, give me the inspiration to do good, please?
I miss you Kim :/
Goodnight..