I am alive, but always falling.
This is my first post in about two weeks. I haven't exactly cared for updating this thing, because it doesn't matter. If you actually cared about what was going on with me, you'd ask personally, right? Yeah, or so I'd think.
Spring break was spent avoiding "friends", or people who like to call me their friend. I hung out with Ashley once, and she stopped by once, that's it. I spent some time with Danny, which was the highlight of my vacation. Other than that, I worked and tried to stay happy, but that's not exactly working. I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown, and it's not even from school. I spend much of my day doing my mom's job and being yelled at for what I don't do right. Never a thank you for what I do do, but it's always about what I don't do. I'm ready to leave, right now. I don't care who I leave or what it takes me to leave this place. People don't really care, they just put a smile on their face and become great actors about it. Don't leave me a pity comments about how you're "always here for me" and you "love me and care for me" because people really don't. I'm always the one people have to come to about their friggin' relationship problems or their life, but when I try to talk about things, I'm "overreacting". But you know, I'm not sorry for being who I am. I'm not always happy and I do have a life of my own that isn't exactly pleasant, so excuse me while I don't give a fuck for a few days.
Here's an idea, if you're not happy in a relationship, why are you still in it? Because you love the bastard? Yeah, my ass. Because you get sex or you have the opportunity of sex, or because you "don't want to hurt them", or you don't know how to "open up". Like that's not the biggest load of shit I've ever heard.
Here's another idea, stop sleeping around. Put your dick, or your vagina, back in your pants and invest in a chasity belt. Believe me, if you don't want pregnancy scares, just stop having sex! Is that too hard to understand? If you're old enough to have sex, you're old enough to deal with the consequences of doing so.
Oh, and another idea, learn to treat people the way you want to be treated. If you want me to listen to every damn pathetic aspect of your life, do the same for me. I refuse to have my "friends" treat me like I'm so advice column. I'm not here to tell you what to do with your fuckin' life! I'm here if you need to talk, but don't expect me to have every fuckin' answer, and when I don't, jump all over my case for it. Believe me, I could care less.
And last but not least, I don't need your comments on how I'm such a bitch, yada yada yada. Three words... I don't care! I won't allow people to walk all over me and tell I'm such a horrible person because, for once, I'm going to focus on my self and not you're overrated depression. I don't except you to care either, because you're just so great for that, right?
Old...
I'm older than the years I've lived
Cold...
I'm colder than the smile you give
My life has been the dreams you say I'm living in
How long will you be lost, my dear
When will you give in?
This isn't directed at anyone in particular, so I apologize for the misunderstanding(s). It's just something I've been thinking about for awhile. No one please take it personal. ♥
Spring break was spent avoiding "friends", or people who like to call me their friend. I hung out with Ashley once, and she stopped by once, that's it. I spent some time with Danny, which was the highlight of my vacation. Other than that, I worked and tried to stay happy, but that's not exactly working. I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown, and it's not even from school. I spend much of my day doing my mom's job and being yelled at for what I don't do right. Never a thank you for what I do do, but it's always about what I don't do. I'm ready to leave, right now. I don't care who I leave or what it takes me to leave this place. People don't really care, they just put a smile on their face and become great actors about it. Don't leave me a pity comments about how you're "always here for me" and you "love me and care for me" because people really don't. I'm always the one people have to come to about their friggin' relationship problems or their life, but when I try to talk about things, I'm "overreacting". But you know, I'm not sorry for being who I am. I'm not always happy and I do have a life of my own that isn't exactly pleasant, so excuse me while I don't give a fuck for a few days.
Here's an idea, if you're not happy in a relationship, why are you still in it? Because you love the bastard? Yeah, my ass. Because you get sex or you have the opportunity of sex, or because you "don't want to hurt them", or you don't know how to "open up". Like that's not the biggest load of shit I've ever heard.
Here's another idea, stop sleeping around. Put your dick, or your vagina, back in your pants and invest in a chasity belt. Believe me, if you don't want pregnancy scares, just stop having sex! Is that too hard to understand? If you're old enough to have sex, you're old enough to deal with the consequences of doing so.
Oh, and another idea, learn to treat people the way you want to be treated. If you want me to listen to every damn pathetic aspect of your life, do the same for me. I refuse to have my "friends" treat me like I'm so advice column. I'm not here to tell you what to do with your fuckin' life! I'm here if you need to talk, but don't expect me to have every fuckin' answer, and when I don't, jump all over my case for it. Believe me, I could care less.
And last but not least, I don't need your comments on how I'm such a bitch, yada yada yada. Three words... I don't care! I won't allow people to walk all over me and tell I'm such a horrible person because, for once, I'm going to focus on my self and not you're overrated depression. I don't except you to care either, because you're just so great for that, right?
Old...
I'm older than the years I've lived
Cold...
I'm colder than the smile you give
My life has been the dreams you say I'm living in
How long will you be lost, my dear
When will you give in?
This isn't directed at anyone in particular, so I apologize for the misunderstanding(s). It's just something I've been thinking about for awhile. No one please take it personal. ♥