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[xlady_viciousx]

Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously.
Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, anything. Be sure to post anonymously

and honestly.

Post twice if u'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what you

(and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Comments

disturbing

[anonymous]

Do you ever feel you get dumber by the day? That somehow you're aware of your inadequacies compared to your peers? That if someone truly knew your innermost secrets, even if you spoke them anonymously, your world would come crashing to an end? Nothing is ever what it seems, some people are inexplicably skilled at hiding behind an image, whatever image they wish to show to the world. I am this person. I understand why I am the way I am, and I see the reasons behind it. I have the desires to do things I shouldn't - things I shouldn't have the desires to do. The desires to do these things strengthen each day, not weaken as they should. I feel as if I'm sliding back in time, as everyone else progresses.

Re: disturbing

[xlady_viciousx]

you know, older people always tell me that everyone is exactly the same... we all go through the same things... and for a while i didn't think they were right. but reading this post, it's dawned on me that maybe they're right. i went through exactly what you're describing to me. i thought i could never escape from it... but i did. you just have to let go of it.. give it up to God and He'll pull you through everything. i'm a living example of this. i have no idea who you are, but if you really need someone to talk to and want to keep it anonymous, you can make a fake AIM sn and IM me.. (dr3amin0range) and we can talk.

Re: disturbing

[anonymous]

You don't understand. You can't understand.

Re: disturbing

[xlady_viciousx]

why is it such a big deal that i might be able to relate? a while ago, when i was that depressed, i was locked inside a shell of myself because i thought the way you do. "no one can understand my pain, i'm the only one going through this. i dont want to tell anyone because they'll never understand me." that negative thought was what kept dragging me down deeper and deeper until i couldn't stand it anymore. and then.. i don't know, i had an epiphany one day. there are way over 6 billion people on this earth... how i could i possibly be the ONLY one going through this? and i pulled through. i gave up my emotion to God and he led me to a person that i knew i could trust.. and i spilled my soul to that person. even they could relate to what i was going through. i'm telling you because i know for a fact that you're not alone.

Re: disturbing

[anonymous]

there's nothing wrong with the way i feel.

Re: disturbing

[xlady_viciousx]

for right now, no. but i tell you from personal experience that eventually the way you feel will take a catastrophic plunge and you may even want to or start doing things to yourself that aren't exactly healthy. it's not unhealthy to be sad or depressed, but it's just so much healthier to be happy again and put everything behind you.