kiss the ones you love with reckless abandoment.

Jan 27, 2010 20:36

(Just for the record, I got the answer I've been needing! A couple days shy of 4 weeks late. <3 ahwww.)

BUT!

Explain to me why I need to wake up at SEVEN AM to text messages starting off with "Jessica what the fuck!" Explain to me how in all of this I am the liar? I made up everything that happened between you and I? Please. If she really believes that, then she deserves you. I can't believe she'd ever have the balls to bring up how I'm 18 &just some kid as if my age makes me young &dumb. Really? You believe that nothing ever happened between him and I and that he is so damn in love with you. Every time he had a clever excuse as to why he was getting home so late, bullshit, he was with me, and when he was laying in MY bed with his hands on ME I'm gunna have to venture to guess he wasn't thinking about how incredibly in love with you he was. I couldn't believe it when I got a text saying "I never kissed you, you kissed me." BULLSHIT. You made all the first moves, we kissed I don't know a zillion times? So yeah, I'll agree that I did kiss you, but only half of those zillion times. The rest of the time, YOUR lips were finding MINE. Matter of fact in this whole thing I'm pretty sure I WAS THE ONE who cared about your wife's feelings. I was the one saying how it would hurt her, you didn't even care. You just complained about her.

Who's the naive one now? I applaud him if he's really making an effort to make things work with you, however he's basing it on lies if you really believe there was nothing between him and I. He's been living on lies for the past 3 months, and I honestly feel so sorry for you if you can't see that. I'm sick and tired of this kid denying everything and not just telling her exactly what went on. I promise you, if it comes to it, I WILL DO IT.

Anyways, I accidentally washed the bracelet Randy gave me for Christmas last night. I wonder if it's a sign that the heart fell off hahahhaa. Hmmm... Putting the heart back on the bracelet almost made me sick. I don't think that's a bracelet I'll be able to sport for quite some time.

But like I said, 4 weeks late. I can't believe it. Obviously there's gunna be some change of plans for these next months, but I'm so excited. My life is slowly but surely going to fall into place. Now I know I will always have a piece of you with me.

it hurts to want everythign and nothing at the same time, I want what's yours and I want what's mine. I want you, but I'm not giving in this time.

"Who wants to hire a preggo mamacitaaaaa" ? hahah



I'm just curious, did I make that note up too? ;)
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