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Well things have been bad lately..It`s like when things seems good or right, they go totally wrong..Jose seems not interested anymore because he doesn`t even try..He doesn`t call me anymore, doesn`t come see me, and treats me like shit so wtf Im not gonna take shit from any nigga. I believe that I need to have my nigga whipped because that`s how it works for me. I wasn`t like inlove with him or anything but i liked him and cared for him but Ima probably end up not talking to him anymore unless he changes his ways, which I doubt. It sucks because you basically have to be skinny and have a pretty face and booty to get a nigga because I seem to always get rejected or played with. Through all of this, I maintain positive and look further because Nigga`s aren`t even worth it anymore..After a bunch of times of bullshit you get used to it. And I have. Im sure my match is out there somewhere but I hate waiting, im too impatient but that`s how things go. I shall stay single I guess because I don`t wanna mess with these boys who think they`re god or something. The world has become so dirty and no one even cares about feelings anymore. One day the world will probably be divided into female couples and male couples because we can`t take this shit that much farther. I`ve been in pain but I hold it in. There`s no point in crying, it`s not like maybe if you cry enough you`ll create the perfect man out of tears. Im just keeping my head up and I appreciate all of my buddies who have been there for me..Basically Ria and Philly. [I love you guys]. I know what I want unlike some other females but what I want isn`t available so Im not going to sweat it. And it`s really odd because now the nigga I dated in the past is talking shit about me..That im pregnant by Pedro but im not..He needs to get a life and move on. He seems to stay stuck on me after i dumped him. But anyways Im just going to focus on my education and fuck everything else because I don`t need anything but myself..Well im out one.