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~ MY BiiRTHDAY ~
well my real birthday was yesterday [ 7th ] my party was the [ 6th ] it was so much fun danyelle & hannah came... & ofcourse my baby and mike... im so glad that Dany came tough me & him havent hung out scence like 4eva thatz my biah right thea.. i mean even if it just turned out that dany & brandon were there it still woulda been so much fun because thats my bestfriend[biah] & my baby..i got t drink a lil... kinda wish i didnt my fcukin head killed after the fact and i still did what i had 2 monday[yesteday].. didnt feel like my birthday at all.. sunday really felt like my birthday mad heads were here and shit it was a lot of fun not to mention a lot of money and presents so im very happy how it turned out...
~ ME & BRANDON ~
were doing good .now. last night we had a fight cant really say why but i mean we got thru it it was wierd because as u all know im the one that is always like "no baby dont break us up if ur sayin how u feel is real dont fcuk it up".. well last night i was the 1 2 say well if u want to leave, LEAVE... and he looked at me his eyes got all watery and he was like No Baby dont do this!... Please dont do this... I love you i dont want to live without u.. i was in shock and ofcourse couldnt stay mad at him... Really think he does love me and this time is real.. and its scareing me because its like thru all the shit me and him have been thru how meny times has it caused us to break up cause of him not me i think out of all the times we broke up IN the recent monthes maybe 1nce was me... and that depens on how u look at it... Ur spouse 2 be able 2 have arguements and not always break up and its like its causeing me not to get to close i mean dont get me wrong i love him with all my heart and that will never change because thats my baby and hopfully my future husband. and yes i can say that because when im not with him noone else croses my mind to be with and noone will ever come between me and him in the scence were id break up wit him for anyone else because when me and him did break up i had my 2 month rule and said fcuk you after 2monthes... and words meant shit and they all knew it I love you is 8 letters so is bullshit ... just because i told them i loved them it didnt mean that i meant it like i do with brandon and they all knew right from jump that ill always be inlove with brandon and no-one can ever change it id ont care how cute how smart or how rich u are it just cant happen.. & all the girls he was with after me it kills me cause they all c the differance with the way he is with me and the way he was with them... and they take it out on me like its my fault which go for it cause i really dont give a fcuk.. but the point is that I KNO HE FEELS THE SAME WAY AS ME! but hes more shore about us then i am i mean dont take that the wrong way .. cause i kno his exses read this YES U CAN STILL BACK THE FCUK OFF!! but i mean he nos how he feels about me im just scared..but hopfully with time that will go away... alls i no is i dont want to not sleep 4 3days stayin up eatin chunky monkey ice cream... saying fcuk everyone cause he hurt me u no? and yes thats really how i was.... but like he told me last night i got noting to worry about cuz i got his heart.. really made me smile!!... I love My baby! always & forever!!
well my real birthday was yesterday [ 7th ] my party was the [ 6th ] it was so much fun danyelle & hannah came... & ofcourse my baby and mike... im so glad that Dany came tough me & him havent hung out scence like 4eva thatz my biah right thea.. i mean even if it just turned out that dany & brandon were there it still woulda been so much fun because thats my bestfriend[biah] & my baby..i got t drink a lil... kinda wish i didnt my fcukin head killed after the fact and i still did what i had 2 monday[yesteday].. didnt feel like my birthday at all.. sunday really felt like my birthday mad heads were here and shit it was a lot of fun not to mention a lot of money and presents so im very happy how it turned out...
~ ME & BRANDON ~
were doing good .now. last night we had a fight cant really say why but i mean we got thru it it was wierd because as u all know im the one that is always like "no baby dont break us up if ur sayin how u feel is real dont fcuk it up".. well last night i was the 1 2 say well if u want to leave, LEAVE... and he looked at me his eyes got all watery and he was like No Baby dont do this!... Please dont do this... I love you i dont want to live without u.. i was in shock and ofcourse couldnt stay mad at him... Really think he does love me and this time is real.. and its scareing me because its like thru all the shit me and him have been thru how meny times has it caused us to break up cause of him not me i think out of all the times we broke up IN the recent monthes maybe 1nce was me... and that depens on how u look at it... Ur spouse 2 be able 2 have arguements and not always break up and its like its causeing me not to get to close i mean dont get me wrong i love him with all my heart and that will never change because thats my baby and hopfully my future husband. and yes i can say that because when im not with him noone else croses my mind to be with and noone will ever come between me and him in the scence were id break up wit him for anyone else because when me and him did break up i had my 2 month rule and said fcuk you after 2monthes... and words meant shit and they all knew it I love you is 8 letters so is bullshit ... just because i told them i loved them it didnt mean that i meant it like i do with brandon and they all knew right from jump that ill always be inlove with brandon and no-one can ever change it id ont care how cute how smart or how rich u are it just cant happen.. & all the girls he was with after me it kills me cause they all c the differance with the way he is with me and the way he was with them... and they take it out on me like its my fault which go for it cause i really dont give a fcuk.. but the point is that I KNO HE FEELS THE SAME WAY AS ME! but hes more shore about us then i am i mean dont take that the wrong way .. cause i kno his exses read this YES U CAN STILL BACK THE FCUK OFF!! but i mean he nos how he feels about me im just scared..but hopfully with time that will go away... alls i no is i dont want to not sleep 4 3days stayin up eatin chunky monkey ice cream... saying fcuk everyone cause he hurt me u no? and yes thats really how i was.... but like he told me last night i got noting to worry about cuz i got his heart.. really made me smile!!... I love My baby! always & forever!!