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Theres been alot of things on my mind lately, and alot of things I have to get off my chest. to several people. Friends. maybe family. people I love. Things have gotten to me, and Im at the breaking point. soon it'll all be said, if I lose friends, oh well I guess. Im tired of being walked on, and Im sick of caring. if I say something to you Im sure you'll know it when it happens. For the longest time what I mainly cared about was making others happy, in return it tortured me, in a way. was nothing but inconvenient to me and pointless because it was unappreciated. or it seemed like it was atleast.
I guess now the list will start..
Adam: ur a cool kid, but kinda weird. and very unreliable. or so it seems. I hooked u up alot in the past. but shit that came up basically caused me to stop calling u, or have any contact with you. straiten things out a little..
Alexandra: Im just friendly with you and chatty. and you seem to blow me off at times, for no reason, I'll joke around with you give me these looks as if i killed someone, maybe im not the ideal friend, but atleast i make an attempt. which is more than i could say for u. concidering u were always wanting to hang out, try acting like u care sometimes.
stephanie: you were cool in the start. and we got along well, then you started hanging out with all the 'cool kids' the ones who will make fun of others because theyre not in the little group. so fuck that, have your fun, I want nothing to do with you.
ashley: Ive told you some things I never told anyone else. and youve told me some things you dont really tell others as well. but as of late ur priorities have been completely off, try looking to those who were there, or who want to be there for u, and not worry about pointless shit. just because you see it as a big deal doesnt mean it really is. try looking at the things u missed out on when u were worrying about something that was never really there.
mario: ur a good kid.. but u really annoy me sometimes (yes i know, im one to talk, right?) something is up with you. ur cool one day, and a complete dick the next.. which is why most of the time i dont really call or anything anymore. maybe its for the better? you call me if u want to chill from now on.
sevim: I love spending time with you. always have. I look to you when Im down, becuz u just have this ability to make me feel better, without even doing anything. but now I also realize that the times we spend together are pointless. I mean Im sure it doesnt exactly mean anything to you. its just another time hanging out with someone.. right? so why should I get myself down even bothering to ask you to chill. If i ask u to chill, youll already have plans. when I make plans in advance something else will generally come up for that day. so I figure this. If you want to hang out call me, until then I wont even bother. maybe itd actually mean something more if u want to hang out after all.
Mara: Im sorry for anything I say that may annoy you. and Im going to stop. but if i do say something, tell me. argue with me even, Im not saying I want to fight with you. but U know we used to argue alot. for some reason of late thats stopped and u cant just say it urself.
tracy: we've known eachother about 3 yrs now, alot of arguing, but a few good moments, late night talks and alot of shit. after recent events tho Im just wondering if its worth it or not. or if it should continue.
Caitlin: youre really fucking stupid and you talk alot of shit. I want nothing to do with you. (short and to the point i know)
veronica: ur easily annoyed and seem to really hate me, yet u call me up if ur stuck without a ride or something, I dont see that as a friendship. so I guess thats it for us, I wont bother keeping contact.
Karly: alot of shit for the past 2 years.. or more. good and bad moments. a decent relationship. when it seemed like you cared that is. every day we were together I felt as if u were hating it. even before troubles between us came up. you were too busy for me. the least important thing to you was what meant the most to me. shows how different we really were I guess. but Im over those things now, Im over all of it, including you. but I still care, and I wish you the best and for nothing but happiness.
theres a fe others to be mentioned, but they dont have LJ's so Ill leave that to in person discussions. if I pissed anyone off feel free to call or message me about it, if not then oh well. sometimes shit has to be said.
later
I guess now the list will start..
Adam: ur a cool kid, but kinda weird. and very unreliable. or so it seems. I hooked u up alot in the past. but shit that came up basically caused me to stop calling u, or have any contact with you. straiten things out a little..
Alexandra: Im just friendly with you and chatty. and you seem to blow me off at times, for no reason, I'll joke around with you give me these looks as if i killed someone, maybe im not the ideal friend, but atleast i make an attempt. which is more than i could say for u. concidering u were always wanting to hang out, try acting like u care sometimes.
stephanie: you were cool in the start. and we got along well, then you started hanging out with all the 'cool kids' the ones who will make fun of others because theyre not in the little group. so fuck that, have your fun, I want nothing to do with you.
ashley: Ive told you some things I never told anyone else. and youve told me some things you dont really tell others as well. but as of late ur priorities have been completely off, try looking to those who were there, or who want to be there for u, and not worry about pointless shit. just because you see it as a big deal doesnt mean it really is. try looking at the things u missed out on when u were worrying about something that was never really there.
mario: ur a good kid.. but u really annoy me sometimes (yes i know, im one to talk, right?) something is up with you. ur cool one day, and a complete dick the next.. which is why most of the time i dont really call or anything anymore. maybe its for the better? you call me if u want to chill from now on.
sevim: I love spending time with you. always have. I look to you when Im down, becuz u just have this ability to make me feel better, without even doing anything. but now I also realize that the times we spend together are pointless. I mean Im sure it doesnt exactly mean anything to you. its just another time hanging out with someone.. right? so why should I get myself down even bothering to ask you to chill. If i ask u to chill, youll already have plans. when I make plans in advance something else will generally come up for that day. so I figure this. If you want to hang out call me, until then I wont even bother. maybe itd actually mean something more if u want to hang out after all.
Mara: Im sorry for anything I say that may annoy you. and Im going to stop. but if i do say something, tell me. argue with me even, Im not saying I want to fight with you. but U know we used to argue alot. for some reason of late thats stopped and u cant just say it urself.
tracy: we've known eachother about 3 yrs now, alot of arguing, but a few good moments, late night talks and alot of shit. after recent events tho Im just wondering if its worth it or not. or if it should continue.
Caitlin: youre really fucking stupid and you talk alot of shit. I want nothing to do with you. (short and to the point i know)
veronica: ur easily annoyed and seem to really hate me, yet u call me up if ur stuck without a ride or something, I dont see that as a friendship. so I guess thats it for us, I wont bother keeping contact.
Karly: alot of shit for the past 2 years.. or more. good and bad moments. a decent relationship. when it seemed like you cared that is. every day we were together I felt as if u were hating it. even before troubles between us came up. you were too busy for me. the least important thing to you was what meant the most to me. shows how different we really were I guess. but Im over those things now, Im over all of it, including you. but I still care, and I wish you the best and for nothing but happiness.
theres a fe others to be mentioned, but they dont have LJ's so Ill leave that to in person discussions. if I pissed anyone off feel free to call or message me about it, if not then oh well. sometimes shit has to be said.
later