Isn't it funny?
I was in Flagstaff today. I left last night and stayed with Brit. Work needed me. Like almost all of my jobs. It is always hard to take a break from it without someone needing me. I can't help it. I love working. I know I'm good at what I do. When I'm good at something, I enjoy it.
Work was fun. It was nice to be in the office for a while. On my way to work I passed by the road that led to Tim's old house. It was weird really. This time last year we would've been outside gardening or something. For some reason, my stomach flipped a couple times. The thought of that whole relationship just doesn't sit right with me. What the heck happened?
First, start off by saying that this is not a rant of oh how I miss my ex or wow, I want to be with him. It was not meant to be. Period. I don't want to sound mean in any way but I can't understand how we ended up in a relationship. I wasn't looking for anything serious. Now that I think about it. In my own way I do care about him. I hope for the best in his life but there is something very off in my heart/belly that just kicks when I think of him. It was fun for awhile but then I felt very sad and empty.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. A Christian cannot be in a relationship with a non-Christian. Believe me, even if you really want to make it work, it won't happen. There is something very special about Ryan and I. We talk about our faith and we share our thoughts about God, who He is and what He wants for us and how we can glorify Him. It is so calming to know that I always have someone who shares that with me. Someone I love very much can be part of my fellowship and celebrate joy in Christ.
We understand that when we say we love each other, we know what we're saying. From experience, some people don't know what love is to me. They hurt or they are just confused and sometimes they back away afraid of the thought. That isn't love. It's not. I've gone on rants about it before. Still, there is so much to learn and to grow into. I cannot wait! This is very exciting. I love Ryan! I don't care who knows it. I can't wait to see him even if he's just around the corner. (He's in South Korea--err well on his way out of Sth Korea) He has made my life more rich, exciting, and joyful. I am truly blessed! God saw a need and filled it with a perfect fit. Love, love, Love.
Work was fun. It was nice to be in the office for a while. On my way to work I passed by the road that led to Tim's old house. It was weird really. This time last year we would've been outside gardening or something. For some reason, my stomach flipped a couple times. The thought of that whole relationship just doesn't sit right with me. What the heck happened?
First, start off by saying that this is not a rant of oh how I miss my ex or wow, I want to be with him. It was not meant to be. Period. I don't want to sound mean in any way but I can't understand how we ended up in a relationship. I wasn't looking for anything serious. Now that I think about it. In my own way I do care about him. I hope for the best in his life but there is something very off in my heart/belly that just kicks when I think of him. It was fun for awhile but then I felt very sad and empty.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. A Christian cannot be in a relationship with a non-Christian. Believe me, even if you really want to make it work, it won't happen. There is something very special about Ryan and I. We talk about our faith and we share our thoughts about God, who He is and what He wants for us and how we can glorify Him. It is so calming to know that I always have someone who shares that with me. Someone I love very much can be part of my fellowship and celebrate joy in Christ.
We understand that when we say we love each other, we know what we're saying. From experience, some people don't know what love is to me. They hurt or they are just confused and sometimes they back away afraid of the thought. That isn't love. It's not. I've gone on rants about it before. Still, there is so much to learn and to grow into. I cannot wait! This is very exciting. I love Ryan! I don't care who knows it. I can't wait to see him even if he's just around the corner. (He's in South Korea--err well on his way out of Sth Korea) He has made my life more rich, exciting, and joyful. I am truly blessed! God saw a need and filled it with a perfect fit. Love, love, Love.