I cant wait for this to end and leave this night behind us.
I don't know what to do anymore. All of a sudden I felt all emotional. Why?
I feel as if I am not good enough for anyone. I feel as if I am not wanted. Why. Since I have been here I have only talked to two different guys. Carl and Brent. Which Carl led me on and Brent used me to make Jenna jealous. Carl was a total asshole to me and treated me so wrong and Brent. Well he is just an ass that is stuck on himself. I hate being myself at times. Everywhere I go, with friends or not, I always see people with couples and I think and wish I had someone too. IDK. Okay I sound stupid. But it's true. I'm not just looking for anyone to date. I'm looking for someone that will treat me really good and WON'T cheat on me or WON'T use me or lead me on. Gosh I'm so stupid.
Well I had to babysit last night. 3-5 and then 7-10. WOOT! not. Logan threw up on me. Ekk. My mom came and got me when I called. When we got home my mom and I was walking into the house and David comes around the corner and he was like "Hey! come here" so mom goes in and I go up to him. He asked me some questions that this bitch said that I said that i did NOT say. Then he told me to call him back around 10:30. Well I come in and then mom tells me that someone with a 423 area code calls and I looked and it was Chad. I called back and we talked. I was packing my clothes as we were talking but then he told me to call him back because he wanted to take a shower and had to help out his dad. Then we got off the phone and I went and did so more packing. I called Jessica to tell her that I will be there either Monday morning or Monday night. We were talking and her cell lost connection. So then David was coming down my road and I was talking to him and Jessica calls me. Well I told her I would call her back. David ask me if I want to go riding I said sure. So I brought the phone upstairs and then left. Right when I got into the truck David was acting weird. I asked him what was wrong and he said nothing. I told him not to lie just tell me. And he was like I'm just thinking and I asked about what? He said. "I'm an idiot" I was like what. And so he said it agian. I was like how. He said "I never took my chance to be with you when you liked me" I was like that doesn't make you a "idiot" So we talked about more stuff. He was like Kayla I wish i gave you that chance I would have treated you so good. I was like david it's okay. You don't always get what you wanted. Yes, I did like you alot but you picked another girl over me. Your not the 1st one. And he said. "I'm so stupid I shouldn't have" And so then I told him lets stop talking about it. I hate to talk about things like that. And I hate to talk about me in that way. So then I he brought me home. We were out for about an hour. So when I got home I saw that Chad called so I called him back but he was on the other line so I told him that to just call me back.
Later that night this girls IMs me. Come to find out it was my bestfriend Beth that I call Befferz. Aww..Do I miss that girl.
Gosh I hate people here. People that I don't even talk to or talk to that much act like they care that I am moving. No you don't shut the fuck up, leave me the FUCK alone and STOP acting like you CARE because you DON'T. Stupid people. *rolls eyes*
O-well I'm outa here. I hate it. To much on my damn mind.
THE END.
Kayla.