Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room...
My week has been hell.
I'm the most miserable i have ever been.
I cry everyday, my friends mean nothing to me...my life is going no where...
....I miss my dad. again no present for him under the tree...a gap between stockings...
no one understand my pain.
im alone in this....and it makes it so much worse...
I miss mike...a lot....ive been bitten so many times from his serpentine like love....it poisons me....but it's become almost like an addiction. I need him to survive...
I shamefully admit it....ive fallen on my face over and over without him to help me walk. Leaving him was the worste mistake i have ever made, and i'll regret it for the rest of my life....you can NEVER forget your first love.
and as a result of my unhappiness here, and my undying earge to escape this place, i may have even furthered my mistakes by enlisting in the US Airforce for Officer training, to pursue Special Investigations.
I leave for California for Basic after graduation.
Im scared to death....i signed away 4 years of my life...
to stand for a cause that i don't believe in.
Ashleigh
I'm the most miserable i have ever been.
I cry everyday, my friends mean nothing to me...my life is going no where...
....I miss my dad. again no present for him under the tree...a gap between stockings...
no one understand my pain.
im alone in this....and it makes it so much worse...
I miss mike...a lot....ive been bitten so many times from his serpentine like love....it poisons me....but it's become almost like an addiction. I need him to survive...
I shamefully admit it....ive fallen on my face over and over without him to help me walk. Leaving him was the worste mistake i have ever made, and i'll regret it for the rest of my life....you can NEVER forget your first love.
and as a result of my unhappiness here, and my undying earge to escape this place, i may have even furthered my mistakes by enlisting in the US Airforce for Officer training, to pursue Special Investigations.
I leave for California for Basic after graduation.
Im scared to death....i signed away 4 years of my life...
to stand for a cause that i don't believe in.
Ashleigh