little more than five and a half years
So I finally got the balls to break up with Alex. We cried, we talked, we even laughed a little bit. And he's even being nice enough to have things stay as they are until I finish with school...well, except for that boyfriend/girlfriend part. That part's over.
Afterwards, I turned on Toy-Box and started dancing. I should feel bad for doing that, but I honestly felt more happy than I have been in a really long while.
That was last Saturday.
And now I'm starting to feel bad because Alex is being more considerate to me than he's ever been. And I wish I had the money to move out because I think it would be better for him. But I don't. And I'm not sure I will before I graduate.
I still love him. He's the best guy I know. But it's so damn hard to be in love with someone that doesn't like himself or even bother to try. And I haven't been happy with him (or me) for a while.
Yeah, there was a (series of) catalyst(s). But Erin the Girl reassured my decision with, "Kime, you were trying to join the Peace Corps to get away from Alex."
After all of this, I just hope that I have someone to kiss when the New Year rings in.
Afterwards, I turned on Toy-Box and started dancing. I should feel bad for doing that, but I honestly felt more happy than I have been in a really long while.
That was last Saturday.
And now I'm starting to feel bad because Alex is being more considerate to me than he's ever been. And I wish I had the money to move out because I think it would be better for him. But I don't. And I'm not sure I will before I graduate.
I still love him. He's the best guy I know. But it's so damn hard to be in love with someone that doesn't like himself or even bother to try. And I haven't been happy with him (or me) for a while.
Yeah, there was a (series of) catalyst(s). But Erin the Girl reassured my decision with, "Kime, you were trying to join the Peace Corps to get away from Alex."
After all of this, I just hope that I have someone to kiss when the New Year rings in.