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So, does any of this seem morbidly transitory?
I texted my friend Natalie to ask her if she wanted to go have lunch with me.
She said yes, and we arranged plans, but for some reason I was very preoccupied with wondering if she really likes me or not, and what she thinks of me, and general malaise of that sort... despite the face that I wasnt really very concerned with the subject, but merely wondering... as she has given me no reason to be concerned.
But amidst all the though provocation I realized that if she doesnt really like me if wont really matter because in only a few years time, I will most likely never see her again. But if She really does like me, then I had better really enjoy her company while I can because in a few years time I will most likely never see her again.
I'm not by any means of attempt or success being pessimistic... It just occurs to me more and more everyday that highschool was vastly more intimate that college and I find it hard to believe as I have heard that THIS is when we crystallize life-changing relationships... maybe it is just due to the experiences I have had thus far, but it seems to be that this is simply not the arena for such events of maturation.
I texted my friend Natalie to ask her if she wanted to go have lunch with me.
She said yes, and we arranged plans, but for some reason I was very preoccupied with wondering if she really likes me or not, and what she thinks of me, and general malaise of that sort... despite the face that I wasnt really very concerned with the subject, but merely wondering... as she has given me no reason to be concerned.
But amidst all the though provocation I realized that if she doesnt really like me if wont really matter because in only a few years time, I will most likely never see her again. But if She really does like me, then I had better really enjoy her company while I can because in a few years time I will most likely never see her again.
I'm not by any means of attempt or success being pessimistic... It just occurs to me more and more everyday that highschool was vastly more intimate that college and I find it hard to believe as I have heard that THIS is when we crystallize life-changing relationships... maybe it is just due to the experiences I have had thus far, but it seems to be that this is simply not the arena for such events of maturation.