" Whatelse Could happen...? "
Long time no write....
Well I just got inmy house not to long ago from work. I don't feel to good. I'm kinda sad/mad/annoyed.. I got a headache. I don't know where to begin yo. At work as time went by and it came closer to me leavin', Everyone started gettin' on my nerves like ckrazzi. Honestly I had an attitude with EVERYONE, but it wasn't serious..Then I just stopped talkin' beckuz I didn't feel like bein bothered. I asked rere got 2 dollars but it was nothing. Then my baby thinks that I'm mad at her and all this stuff. I wasn't takin it out on her intentionally..but now shes mad at me..When I got off the bus I felt it all. No matter if I'm mad, I can't help but smile at her sometimes even when she's mad. When I was gettin off the bus I had a lil smirk but it was nothin'. I dno't know yo. I'm so confused. I got a headache like ckrazzi. I just need to chill yo. I just need to go on a long vacation to like the islands..
Today at work mad stuff just was happenin. It wasn't worth a job though na'mean. But it's w/e. Then as it started gettin crowded, I started gettin annoyed. Oh well. It's whateva nowadayz. Right now i got SO MANY thoughts going through my head right now. Some good, Some bad..My ckuzzin's came over here today and when I got in the house my mom had told me they had just left. My ckuzzin shaboogz got a new cell, so she gave my mom da # to give to me..I think imma chill wit her next week or two in dat Queenz. I miss my ckuzzin. We got close, then far.....and I'm not wit it. Off of that, I graduate in june 06'. Time is flyin'..It's gettin on my nerves ckuz every1 is puttin more and more pressure on me and it's like I'm pleasin' everyone by graduatin' on time and i be havin' doubts at times. Then I think about college, thats not really a problem ckuz I know where I wanna go and what I wanna do. I'm just not going right away..But if I don't my mother will get mad at me. Sometimes I feel like I'm livin' to please someone else..It's drivin me ckrazzi..Everyone wants to be pleased and happy but Then it's like what about me?..But I won't get into that story..
I think I'mma end this journal ckuz there's no more I wanna even attempt to say. Except my baby isn't comin to skoo tomorrow..thats gonna suck ckuz Imma be almost by myself. Imma have my daddy, my rere n maybe lika if she come to skoo..every1 else is just there. I don't like half the ppl in port ckuz I sense fakeness all around me. Everyone is fake nowadayz except a selected few that I shall not name..I don't want to single no one out..Okay so i lied I wasn't gonna end my journal there ..i'll end it here..I feel a little better ckuz I got stuff of my head..even though I left a little out..It's BLAH.
1ne. Jim Jones.