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i am getting bad grades.
i wonder if this means i can be sent home now?
went to spokane this weekend with my roomate and was bored as hell.
i did, however, buy a dress for johns homecoming, a sweatshirt, perfume, and some other stuff.
i probably spent about 250 dollars or so.
i spent a bunch of money on clothes last week too.
like almost 200 dollars, probably.
when my dad finds out i spent all my money, he is going to be beyond infuriated.
i wonder if this means he will let me come home now?
i never said i wanted to come here.
college was their dream for me.
not mine.
big college, at least.
something small like pierce would be fine with me.
i could pay 900 dollar tuition, half ass all my classes and get a's, have a car, and have a real job.
none of which can be done here, at least this semester.
i feel trapped.
i miss my junior year and the summer before senior year.
i didnt care about anything and my life was so perfect.
john is lucky that he has another year of highschool, but he doesnt think so.
sometimes i wish i could be young again and know all the things i know now.
stupid.
just last year i couldnt wait to be an adult.
now that i am "an adult" i am fucking up everything.
i wonder if this means i should come home now?
i wonder if this means i can be sent home now?
went to spokane this weekend with my roomate and was bored as hell.
i did, however, buy a dress for johns homecoming, a sweatshirt, perfume, and some other stuff.
i probably spent about 250 dollars or so.
i spent a bunch of money on clothes last week too.
like almost 200 dollars, probably.
when my dad finds out i spent all my money, he is going to be beyond infuriated.
i wonder if this means he will let me come home now?
i never said i wanted to come here.
college was their dream for me.
not mine.
big college, at least.
something small like pierce would be fine with me.
i could pay 900 dollar tuition, half ass all my classes and get a's, have a car, and have a real job.
none of which can be done here, at least this semester.
i feel trapped.
i miss my junior year and the summer before senior year.
i didnt care about anything and my life was so perfect.
john is lucky that he has another year of highschool, but he doesnt think so.
sometimes i wish i could be young again and know all the things i know now.
stupid.
just last year i couldnt wait to be an adult.
now that i am "an adult" i am fucking up everything.
i wonder if this means i should come home now?