Blow me a kiss, blow me away
Hello.
For the first time in about 3 or 4 months i feel good.
i like that.
So pretty much summer was boozefest. I got fat. We'll admit it.
So my mama and i are turning the basement into a pretty extreme work out room. I've been dealing with things, thinking alot and just taking alot of time to myself, which i feel kind of selfish for because i didnt really talk to many people, but i feel like i'm coming back into the world.
For about 2 weeks now i've been busy.
I like keeping myself busy.
For the 2 or 3 months before that i've just been so apathetic it seems, and just drifting through everything.
I completely let everything go for about a week and just hit -not exactly a rock bottom depression per-say- but whatever it was it woke me up.
Lately, i've been hanging out with people i feel i've neglected and some new people and i'm really happy. I've been reconciling with some people and it feels really good.
I'm going to become a newer, better version of me.
One i like better.
I also like alot more chill music than i used to.
I think i'm mellowing out and becoming more adult-ish?
In about a half hour i've got to go back yet again to state park to get my new car.
I'll post a picture of my baby soon. I dunno what to name it yet.
Suggestions?
I've also come to the realization that the people i talk to day in and day out..this time next year, i more than likely won't see. It's kind of a bummer of a conclusion, but it's forced me to better appreciate the relationships i have now.
I'm probably boring you with this Lj entry. But i've just been doin alot of thinking lately.
Tonight: Thanksgiving with dad's side and movie with Seemiller, then possibly some king's? i gotta call up my bitches.
Tomorrow: all day at gramma's. believe me, i'm pumpin my fists riiight now.
Fridizzle: BLACK FRIDAY! i'm camping outside Sears. Feel free to join me or visit. later that night-hopefully people over? hopefully.
Yeah. those are about as solid as my plans get.
At least until next year. Tentatively, me, mark and nate are getting a house/apartment in/near pittsburgh area cause me and mark are going to robert morris and nate works up there. That's why im camping outside of sears.
kickass 42" plasma. i'm crossing my fingers to get it for my boys and my crib. My mom and dad wont tell me what they want for christmas. it drives me mad. Bah. I've rambled enough for one entry.
later< 3
For the first time in about 3 or 4 months i feel good.
i like that.
So pretty much summer was boozefest. I got fat. We'll admit it.
So my mama and i are turning the basement into a pretty extreme work out room. I've been dealing with things, thinking alot and just taking alot of time to myself, which i feel kind of selfish for because i didnt really talk to many people, but i feel like i'm coming back into the world.
For about 2 weeks now i've been busy.
I like keeping myself busy.
For the 2 or 3 months before that i've just been so apathetic it seems, and just drifting through everything.
I completely let everything go for about a week and just hit -not exactly a rock bottom depression per-say- but whatever it was it woke me up.
Lately, i've been hanging out with people i feel i've neglected and some new people and i'm really happy. I've been reconciling with some people and it feels really good.
I'm going to become a newer, better version of me.
One i like better.
I also like alot more chill music than i used to.
I think i'm mellowing out and becoming more adult-ish?
In about a half hour i've got to go back yet again to state park to get my new car.
I'll post a picture of my baby soon. I dunno what to name it yet.
Suggestions?
I've also come to the realization that the people i talk to day in and day out..this time next year, i more than likely won't see. It's kind of a bummer of a conclusion, but it's forced me to better appreciate the relationships i have now.
I'm probably boring you with this Lj entry. But i've just been doin alot of thinking lately.
Tonight: Thanksgiving with dad's side and movie with Seemiller, then possibly some king's? i gotta call up my bitches.
Tomorrow: all day at gramma's. believe me, i'm pumpin my fists riiight now.
Fridizzle: BLACK FRIDAY! i'm camping outside Sears. Feel free to join me or visit. later that night-hopefully people over? hopefully.
Yeah. those are about as solid as my plans get.
At least until next year. Tentatively, me, mark and nate are getting a house/apartment in/near pittsburgh area cause me and mark are going to robert morris and nate works up there. That's why im camping outside of sears.
kickass 42" plasma. i'm crossing my fingers to get it for my boys and my crib. My mom and dad wont tell me what they want for christmas. it drives me mad. Bah. I've rambled enough for one entry.
later< 3