Um...
What a crazy conundrum I'm dealing with these days. Too many people, too many feelings, I'm so confused in it all; honestly. At this point, hell.fucking.yes I'm counting down until Spring Break. I need to get the fuck away from these feelings, and I need to get back to my family. I need to get back to my Thomas, my Mark, my Caitland, etc. I need those people. Those people have nothing to do with these ridiculous feelings of lust and they aren't confusing me in the least. Winter break was great, I didn't want to leave. I really didn't. That only meant the inevitable: I'd just want to be back. This is how it always goes. I'm finding that I'm never truly happy in one place, and that's getting a bit annoying. I can't take the stir-crazy after ONE full week of classes.
Side note: I fucking hate Thursday(s).
Everyday that I'm not with my sister, I feel like I'm losing a part of my soul. We really connected this break, if you can understand connecting with an eight-year old. I think she's almost finished with the phase where she gets mad at me left and right, and is learning to embrace the time we have together. Well, at least, that's what I'm finding myself doing. I miss her so much. Hearing her voice sends me to the moon, and it makes me feel like everything else in the world, be in a Thursday, can't phase me in the least, as long as my sister says, "I love you, Kellie." It's the best.
I need home.
Side note: I fucking hate Thursday(s).
Everyday that I'm not with my sister, I feel like I'm losing a part of my soul. We really connected this break, if you can understand connecting with an eight-year old. I think she's almost finished with the phase where she gets mad at me left and right, and is learning to embrace the time we have together. Well, at least, that's what I'm finding myself doing. I miss her so much. Hearing her voice sends me to the moon, and it makes me feel like everything else in the world, be in a Thursday, can't phase me in the least, as long as my sister says, "I love you, Kellie." It's the best.
I need home.