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[xkeepingmeawake]

after reading an interview and a blog entry by 2 people from bands i like(tom delonge ava/b182) and buddy(senses fail) i realized the things they went thru were things i can relate to in a sense the past 3-4 years have just been absolutley insane i've lost so many people and was on the brink of insanity in a way my family fell apart my gma died i had a suicidal gf the band i was in fell apart i fucked up big time in school i was very lazy unmotivated blah b lah blah but after breaking up with a gf my eyes were opened to things everything became clearer and things started making sense i used to not care about many things but when we had the terrible natural disasters it was very painful to watch 9/11 wasnt that big of a deal to me because of who i was and what i was about and what i stood for now a new chapter of my life has started and i hope this is the best one lately things have been really good im getting closer to people i neglected and didnt spend much time with im off to college soon and before you know it ill prob be getting married and hopefully having a good job theres still so much for me to learn/do/experience and i just hope this is the beginning of something beautiful and that i can do my part and make this world a better place...

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I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.