I guess Im back
So I havent been on LJ in years. So I just made a new one. I dont know why I suddenly decided to make one. Just sitting here, looking through friends' and I just think "Hmmm i want one..." So I made one.
Lately life has been amazing. It is the last few weeks of summer. I go back on the 21st. Still no where near done with summer reading. I have to read 4 books and write two papers, and I have finished one book. Hoorah. This summer was fun though. I went to Wisconsin and the beach and France. The beach was the best though. A week with my favorite people:: Kim/Kimcredible, Brannon/Bran Muffin/Brannerific, Ian, Ian Number 2, Alex, Lexi, and the Korean. The highlight was deffinatly 6/6/06. Around midnight on the 5th some of us were telling scary stories and then the power flickered. We all ended up sleeping upstairs that night. And the next day we found a starfish with 6 arms. We named him Damian. The night before Kim and Brannon and I made signs that said "REPENT BEACHES" and we put them outside facing the beach. We got odd looks.
Wisconsin was fun. Dani wasnt there and I was really sick half of the time.
And then I went to France for 2 weeks, which was the worst. I mean, I liked it and all, but I missed Jarrett and Kim and Emma so much. I liked being there, but I would have rather been home.
This week I am babysitting and pretty much living with Emma. Its gonna be sweet.
Lately I have been thinking alot about my friends. I have realized that there are only 3 people I can consider my best friends. Jarrett [well the boyfriend is immediately a best friend], Kim and Emma. They are the people that I cannot be without. Other certain friends though... I dont know. Many people fit into this. Its like we have been friends a long time, but all of the sudden its like they dont care about me anymore. I considered them best friends up until recently when I realized how they felt about me. Ill admit, it hurts. But so far its good. I know I have changed alot in the past year, but that doesnt mean that I should lose friends. Its still me, just different. If that makes sense. It seems that they judge me and decide that they are better off without me. Thats fine. Im better off without them. But the worst part is that after they make this decision, and I have accepted it, they want to hang out and all. So I think "OK another chance." But it all happened again and its really hard. So if you think you may fit into this, you may. This is how you make me feel. And I hate it.
The other night I went to a friends house. And I know her father hates me now. I have known him for years and years but, like other people, all of the sudden hates me. I couldnt even look him in the eye. He thinks he has ,me all figured out. But ohhh my god hes wrong. He thinks I am a GOTH. Rigghhttttt. That is the last thing I am. I am a christian and proud of it.
I guess my life lately has been figuring things out. With friends, family, people in general. Im sick of trying to impress certain people. Im done. If you dont like me, thats your loss. Im sorry.
//katastic
Lately life has been amazing. It is the last few weeks of summer. I go back on the 21st. Still no where near done with summer reading. I have to read 4 books and write two papers, and I have finished one book. Hoorah. This summer was fun though. I went to Wisconsin and the beach and France. The beach was the best though. A week with my favorite people:: Kim/Kimcredible, Brannon/Bran Muffin/Brannerific, Ian, Ian Number 2, Alex, Lexi, and the Korean. The highlight was deffinatly 6/6/06. Around midnight on the 5th some of us were telling scary stories and then the power flickered. We all ended up sleeping upstairs that night. And the next day we found a starfish with 6 arms. We named him Damian. The night before Kim and Brannon and I made signs that said "REPENT BEACHES" and we put them outside facing the beach. We got odd looks.
Wisconsin was fun. Dani wasnt there and I was really sick half of the time.
And then I went to France for 2 weeks, which was the worst. I mean, I liked it and all, but I missed Jarrett and Kim and Emma so much. I liked being there, but I would have rather been home.
This week I am babysitting and pretty much living with Emma. Its gonna be sweet.
Lately I have been thinking alot about my friends. I have realized that there are only 3 people I can consider my best friends. Jarrett [well the boyfriend is immediately a best friend], Kim and Emma. They are the people that I cannot be without. Other certain friends though... I dont know. Many people fit into this. Its like we have been friends a long time, but all of the sudden its like they dont care about me anymore. I considered them best friends up until recently when I realized how they felt about me. Ill admit, it hurts. But so far its good. I know I have changed alot in the past year, but that doesnt mean that I should lose friends. Its still me, just different. If that makes sense. It seems that they judge me and decide that they are better off without me. Thats fine. Im better off without them. But the worst part is that after they make this decision, and I have accepted it, they want to hang out and all. So I think "OK another chance." But it all happened again and its really hard. So if you think you may fit into this, you may. This is how you make me feel. And I hate it.
The other night I went to a friends house. And I know her father hates me now. I have known him for years and years but, like other people, all of the sudden hates me. I couldnt even look him in the eye. He thinks he has ,me all figured out. But ohhh my god hes wrong. He thinks I am a GOTH. Rigghhttttt. That is the last thing I am. I am a christian and proud of it.
I guess my life lately has been figuring things out. With friends, family, people in general. Im sick of trying to impress certain people. Im done. If you dont like me, thats your loss. Im sorry.
//katastic