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Ya know. i tried once to have close friends. and try and be friends with everyone....not just the fact to have them. but because i actually care...and want to be close friends. but as for effort goes. i guess that shit just gets forgotten i guess. If a friend gives up and believes that ya know..... the friendship isn't worth it..because i'm such a
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If I didn't FUCKING CARE, I WOULDN'T HAVE FUCKING WRITTEN IT, AND I WOULDN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR DECISIONS LATELY. Just fucking think about that.
And yeah, you say you're gonna quit. What the fuck ever. THat's why you snorted shit up your nose teh last time Sam was here(before Xmas break), EVEN THOUGH YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE GOING TO QUIT. Riiiight. YOu really quit alright. I sure can tell.
As for the Ross thing, about making out with him? I'm sorry, but I don't think that was just for a little "fun."
Get over Paul. Get over yourself. Stop your lying. Stop acting like you're going to do something when you're fucking not.
I'm tired of friends lying to me, and disappointing me. You're fucking STRONGER than how you've been acting.
You want to do drugs to forget about PEOPLE, obviously me, AND fuck up your life at the same time? Go for it. BE LIKE YOUR FUCKING MOTHER, WHO YOU KNOW IS GOOD FOR NOTHING, YET YOU CAN'T ADMIT IT. Yeah, love her. I don't give a fuck if you love her, I expect it, she's your fucking mother, but she's no one to fucking idolize.
When you fucking stop acting like you have in this entry, you know where to fucking find me. And if you care anything about the damn friendship, you'll put forth the effort. You haven't tried to get ahold of me in like a fucking month, you've been too busy doing your fucking drugs and partying. Yeah. I really should feel bad about how I feel, huh? What the fuck ever.
Don't fucking act like you're the damn victim here.
I'm guessing that all you wrote in that note you left on my mailbox tonight was a fucking lie. Until you come forth and prove me otherwise, FINE.
Adios.
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I KNOW that's not fucking directed towards me, and if it is, you can fucking kill yourself. I wasn't calling you a FUCKING SLUT, like I fucking said, that entry was about a majority of people in fucking Covington, and you know this place is MAD FULL of fucking sluts.
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No Jenna i'd rather you do it for me.
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about paul? FUCK PAUL!!!!! you don't know shit about anything Jenna. not lately anyways. you may think you know. but you really don't know shit. especially in that situation. so don't "tell" me to get over anything. Fuck you. Stop acting like i'm gonna do something? well Jenna looks like i'm doing a whole lot more then you are. In more ways then one.
YOU. don't know my mother. All you know is that she's a crackwhore. thats about it. Same as everyone else in this fucking town. My life has nothing to do with my mom anymore Jenna. YOU out of all people should know this. She has no fucking influence and no control over me. Anything i do...is my own choice.
Fuck Sam. I don't know why the fuck he thinks its his duty to fuckin tell everyone anyway. its not his problem and nothing he is doing is helping. so tell him to fuck off then.
I haven't tried to get a fuckin hold of you Jenna? The last time i got a hold of you online you were probably smoochin up on Reb.....and its not like you got on and talked to me..he was. you two didn't really seem like you wanted to hang out anyway. Maybe i didn't feel like sitting on your computer or watching TV while you guys have loud sex in the next room. because there isn't anyone there with me. What the fuck ever. When the fuck do you ever answer your goddamn phone. i even call knowing your not gonna answer it...surprisingly on CHristmas your sister picked up the phone...but you were busy. so then i read your journals.......and then thats when i found out how you really felt. No that note wasn't a lie. But that was before i knew you were thinkin all this bullshit. So now i guess it is irrelevant isn't it.
I do nothing but put up with your shit Jenna. and take up for you. If you only knew how many people you think are your friends...who really just talk so much fuckin shit about you. and ya know.....those very same people.. probably talk shit about me to you too. I bet you don't do the same for me though right? But just so you know....they do the same to you too. I hope you've been having fun with Katie Reede over at Jimmy's. I'm glad you were finally able to see Jeremy. I hope you do start hanging out with them . Maybe it will be a change from you being so stuck up Rebs ass. go ahead Jenna join everyone else who wants to give me bullshit right now. Because i don't need anyone. I don't need to prove myself. Because i haven't done anything. think about it. What the fuck have i done or said to hurt you. As for me doing drugs...its not hurting you. So just leave that alone ok? It is NOT like i'v been avoiding you Jenna. SO get over yourself and check your messages and caller ID. You forget i don't have a car. I can't just go over to your house whenever i feel like it. Especially when i couldn't get a hold of you in the first fuckin place. Its not fuckin up to me Jenna. and no i'm not the victim. Because i never said i was. But i don't feel like being bitched at when i'm tying to solve my own fuckin problems and if thats all you gonna fuckin do.......then maybe its better off to stay away from each other. Because i don't need this shit. or anyone elses.
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