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[xkandierokzx]

Work was cruel last night.Its not suppose to be fuckin busy on mondays goddamnit! I talked to my mom after work. She's all tryin to get me to go down to Florida for Christmas. I told her i can't. She asked me when i'm gonna go down there and lived.. and jokingly i was like..man ya'll would drive me crazy!. then she started to cry and shit. *screams* i hate it when she does that shit. It makes me feel bad. Because i don't want to live with her. My dad does that shit too. wtf? i can't fuckin do everything and be with everyone! i really don't want to do anything right now. maybe visit or somethin but i can't because i don't get fuckin vacations and shit. Me growing up makes my parents cry. I can't say or do anything because I'm scared I'm gonna hurt their feelings or something. So i tell both of them i'll live with them in two years. But really i'm not. Maybe they'll forget.

I'm off today! yay! i'm gonna hang out with Amber when she gets out of school til she has to work at 4:30. Then put up Christmas decorations and stuff.


we have a tree this year! I'm so happy! I haven't had a Christmas tree since i was 4! I have to wrap the gifts i bought. I want to try and hang out with Jenna tonight. But i really don't know if thats going to happen. For some reason she doesn't really sound exactly happy to hang out with me tonight. WHo knows i think maybe she wants to hangout with Reb. Plus i can't really think of anything for us to do. I'm broke so yeah.
Greg is leaving tomorrow. He called me last night, but i was working. I didn't get a chance to call him back. I'm gonna try to later.