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This is probably the most confusing/stressful time of my life.
And it shouldn't be, because it's the summer before my senior year.
But I feel so guilty about so many things.
And my parents grill me about everything; who I talk to, where I go. I'm sick of it.
I'm probably hanging out with people I shouldn't be hanging out with ... for multiple reasons.
And I'm probably hurting people I don't want to hurt.
Even though nothing has happened - the fact that it had the potential to is enough to create the worst guilty conscience. And since when do I have a conscience?
Maybe I love someone. Maybe I like someone. Maybe I'm a bad friend ... or girlfriend ... or whatever I am.
I'm so confused. And I feel like I'm failing multiple things by doing what I've been doing, yet I can't stop.
I'm stuck in a rut.
And it shouldn't be, because it's the summer before my senior year.
But I feel so guilty about so many things.
And my parents grill me about everything; who I talk to, where I go. I'm sick of it.
I'm probably hanging out with people I shouldn't be hanging out with ... for multiple reasons.
And I'm probably hurting people I don't want to hurt.
Even though nothing has happened - the fact that it had the potential to is enough to create the worst guilty conscience. And since when do I have a conscience?
Maybe I love someone. Maybe I like someone. Maybe I'm a bad friend ... or girlfriend ... or whatever I am.
I'm so confused. And I feel like I'm failing multiple things by doing what I've been doing, yet I can't stop.
I'm stuck in a rut.