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[xkadisx]

I just want to first say THANKYOU to everyone for everything..you all are so wonderful and truely my life is so inriched because of you all. I am home and doing okay, I cried most of the drive to Idaho but now that I am here its not so bad at all, and I am looking forward to time for myself. this first week we have been redoing my room because it is still like a little teen's room from highschool which never mattered much before but since I will be living in it for a little while now its time for a change, and its exciting, my mom and I went and pciked out some cool paint from home depot ( cracked wheat to be exact on the color) and a new ceiling lamp and I am doing alright..I mean it has it ups and down from missing you all so much and being scared of this journey but overall..its alright..and even the two girls I have run into so far from Highschool (yeah its a small town here) it wasn't even so bad running into them and despite the fact that they are married or having babies, it was neat to run into them and just say a hello..which I think was one of the things I was most afraid of...but they/its not so bad at all really..so yay! it was a pleasant suprise..i think I tend to make things more scary than they are...but I also came to a funny realization the otehr day:

After all this time upon coming back to my "home" I realize that Oregon is actually my new home..oh don't get me wrong I will always have some Idaho pride and despite my best efforts love the white-trash of J-Town forever..but man, I am such an oregonian.

Also, I have come to realize how fucking Indie I am..and I like it.

Love you all and I am sending you the best day ever!