Home to Find Myself
Coming Home to Find Myself
Its the hardest decision of my life right now...I am taking a leave of absence for the semester...I am leaving my life here at College, Linfield, Oregon...I am going home to Idaho...I need this
I have prayed constantly for the past month...I find myself searching and reaching out for God in the most random of times and throughout my day..and when I was asked by my Advisor if I would rather push through my junior year or take a step back, gain perspective and get my life together...I said a prayer..and I knew
So I am taking a step back and it is the most forward thing I have done for myself.
I have some goals I plan to complete, a rough sketch of things to help on my pilgramage...mainly I thin I just need a lot of time for myself...something that I feel like I take too much time for but in reality ( or at least according to My sister) I never do because I consider taking care of myself as in taking care of all the world around me...I don't know if this is true..but I do know that right now I need this time, this space, this travel
I am going to finally walk...just take long walks..I love walking..there is nothing that quite so connects you to the environment around you and its natural beauty than planting your own feet on the solid earth and steping forward..even better when barefoot
I don't expect any massive revelations..I just need a more of an understanding..I have become blind over this year and I need time to open my eyes and see...to get perspective
but most of all I feel like after one of the most amazing summers of my life I have lost sight/touch/closeness to my faith...and I need to regain that stregnth
I am nothing without it.
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I lay myself at Your feet
Asking You won't You meet
Won't You meet me
I cannot do it on my own
I cannot do it all alone
Here I am, oh, tonight
With my arms open wide
Won't You come inside
Won't You come inside, God
Come and fill this heart of mine
I'm in need of You
Of Your touch, of Your life, of Your love
I need You
I need You
So hard to fathom the pain in Your eyes
As You're watching Your children, doing what You despise
In pursuit of our own
We just go round and round
Another nail to our cause
We continue to pound
What are you, man, if you do not learn love
Another day gone by
And again I ask myself why
I question my sanity
Why I believe what I believe
Some might think that I am crazy
For believing in something I cannot see
So won't You now
Hold on to me
~ Shawn McDonald
I am the silence in the music, I am the falling in your love, I am the beggining and the end...
~ Danielle Rose
* 2Corinthians 6:9-13*
Its the hardest decision of my life right now...I am taking a leave of absence for the semester...I am leaving my life here at College, Linfield, Oregon...I am going home to Idaho...I need this
I have prayed constantly for the past month...I find myself searching and reaching out for God in the most random of times and throughout my day..and when I was asked by my Advisor if I would rather push through my junior year or take a step back, gain perspective and get my life together...I said a prayer..and I knew
So I am taking a step back and it is the most forward thing I have done for myself.
I have some goals I plan to complete, a rough sketch of things to help on my pilgramage...mainly I thin I just need a lot of time for myself...something that I feel like I take too much time for but in reality ( or at least according to My sister) I never do because I consider taking care of myself as in taking care of all the world around me...I don't know if this is true..but I do know that right now I need this time, this space, this travel
I am going to finally walk...just take long walks..I love walking..there is nothing that quite so connects you to the environment around you and its natural beauty than planting your own feet on the solid earth and steping forward..even better when barefoot
I don't expect any massive revelations..I just need a more of an understanding..I have become blind over this year and I need time to open my eyes and see...to get perspective
but most of all I feel like after one of the most amazing summers of my life I have lost sight/touch/closeness to my faith...and I need to regain that stregnth
I am nothing without it.
*************************************************************************
I lay myself at Your feet
Asking You won't You meet
Won't You meet me
I cannot do it on my own
I cannot do it all alone
Here I am, oh, tonight
With my arms open wide
Won't You come inside
Won't You come inside, God
Come and fill this heart of mine
I'm in need of You
Of Your touch, of Your life, of Your love
I need You
I need You
So hard to fathom the pain in Your eyes
As You're watching Your children, doing what You despise
In pursuit of our own
We just go round and round
Another nail to our cause
We continue to pound
What are you, man, if you do not learn love
Another day gone by
And again I ask myself why
I question my sanity
Why I believe what I believe
Some might think that I am crazy
For believing in something I cannot see
So won't You now
Hold on to me
~ Shawn McDonald
I am the silence in the music, I am the falling in your love, I am the beggining and the end...
~ Danielle Rose
* 2Corinthians 6:9-13*