May 23, 2005 19:01
had the surgery thing today :(
hurts like a bitch
lets see... got up at bout 8 n went to the hospital wayy out there
walk in sign all my papers and then they take me back, i put on my lil gowny thing and got into my uncomfy bed. they hooked me up to all these things, heart, blood pressure, some other things that i didnt kno bout.
then comes time for the IV... ouch. Sooo she gets everthing ready n im watchin her thinkin this bitch is mean and is gonna hurt me. score.
so she puts the first needle in to numb it, then she shoves the IV in... man it hurt sooo bad but i didnt flinch once cuz im awsome like that. so i was able to enjoy the feeling of liquid goin into my arm for bout 15 minutes, and i talked to my awsome doctor and i kept makin everyone laugh so that made myself feel a bit less nervous. watched some t.v. then they came in n unhooked everything and wheeled me into the surgery room... i totally felt like i was on a diff. version of h.o.u.s.e... so needless to say i was pumped bout that. so get back in the freezing room and they plug me back in, i congratulate them on the nice decorating in there ( it was very homey) and then they made me turn on my side... and i hear " this is gonna really hurt, im sorry " so she puts the stuff that knocks you out into my IV and oohh momma it hurt goin into my arm, i felt it go all the way up to my shoulder... im weird so i can say this... but i'd do it again cuz it was freakin sweet. so im layin there waitin for it to kick in... OMG AMAZING FEELING you get all dizzy and everything gets blurry... ahh awsome.
so wake up in my room and i start rippin stuff off me, like the blood pressure thing and mom doesnt kno if she wants to laugh or make me stop... i guess i was cute? so had to somewhat wake up for bout an hour or so and then they lemme go... but first i find out i have a very rare and severe eulcer in my eusophogus... rare meaning people like never get them there, and sever meaning if i woulda waited i would have a large hole in my throat... YES JUST WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED! so yes the doctor told my mom i guess that he doesnt kno how i could stand the pain from that... see fuckers i wasnt lieing... weak ass bitches.
so now im home and im in pain... much pain
my throat is on fire and it hurts so bad, momma keeps makin me jello cuz it makes it feel better
oh and the guy i call a father didnt call me once this weekend or today to see how i was... i hate him.. more than any of you could imagine. barry knows :(
i hope this costs him alot of money
sry bout what this used to say... medication and me being wayy crabby n hateing my father doesnt help
well i feel like im gonna pass out sooo im goin to lay down...