Nothing will ever be the same.

[xjustxbelievex]

I'm lost and confused. At this point i dont know what to do. i'm scared out of my mind and just i dont know. I messed up in some way or another and now im paying for it. everytime i become happy somthing i did fucks it up. I simply wish i could just roll over and die. Nothing seems right anymore and i dont think it ever will. I have this thing called 'my happy place' which is filled with everything that makes me happy. there's only one thing in there now and im not sure how much longer it will last. After that's gone i'll be empty and unworthy. After the one thing that makes me happy is gone, there will be no point in doing anything let alone live... I dont know what to do, what to say, or how to act anymore... all i know is that i'm sorry for putting you through this hell.

I love you more than you know.

Goodbye.