and all that could have been

[xjustsaymaybex]

i often confuse love with need.
or need with want.
or something like that.

i assume renae and i will never be good friends.
and it's not due to any personal grudges we hold against each other.
i will never have a bad thing to say about renae.
i adore, respect and love her to the highest degree.
and ultimately all i want is for her to be happy.
she deserves it.
but her and i are so different.
more different than i realized.
but, atleast i plan on trying.
and if she ever needs someone to talk to.
i promise to be around.

as for myself.
i find myself interested in a familiar face.
of course i've been denying it up and down the past few days.
but it's hard to escape the obvious.
and my mallory heart is sure to fail.
so i shouldn't even try.