yeah i dont know
im stressed..my hearts in a 18763876287 pieces..but i know ill get through it all..i just have to get my mind straight..get over things and love again..realize i do have some great friends even if there is a 1000 that could give a shit but at the same time there is a few that would never leave my side..and i thank god for that..cause well he amazes me sometimes..i know i have doubted him alot especially in the past couple of months but who else could ever make life so real and make things at times feel so amazing and incredible..maybe im crazy but i can deal with that..so what i dont have the world on my side and i sometimes make the biggest mistakes but i do have him to help me through it all
and so what i dont know what to do with myself right now..ive cried myself to sleep for the past week or so..my emotions are crazy..im scared and yes i doubt myself a lot..but somehow i will make it through this mess..i will get over my first love..and i promise myself that..and i will learn from it all
maybe i will make some of the same mistakes with the next person but all i can do is try to learn from it all..learn that people do care and that i am not alone and people are there for me from time to time even when i think the world has abandoned me
Amy and Katie are always gonna be there..they ALWAYS know when somethings wrong even by the tone of my voice..other people would think everythings alright but somehow they just know..and i know the same for them..and i just wish i was the same for them..and maybe i am i dont know..
i miss haley..ALOT..she still to this day can make my day no matter what..and somehow her too always understands my problems..and she def knows how to make my day
wow im really rambleing i just needed to get things out even though i wrote about 10 pages in my journal tonight
AHHAjiasdkqwjh
and so what i dont know what to do with myself right now..ive cried myself to sleep for the past week or so..my emotions are crazy..im scared and yes i doubt myself a lot..but somehow i will make it through this mess..i will get over my first love..and i promise myself that..and i will learn from it all
maybe i will make some of the same mistakes with the next person but all i can do is try to learn from it all..learn that people do care and that i am not alone and people are there for me from time to time even when i think the world has abandoned me
Amy and Katie are always gonna be there..they ALWAYS know when somethings wrong even by the tone of my voice..other people would think everythings alright but somehow they just know..and i know the same for them..and i just wish i was the same for them..and maybe i am i dont know..
i miss haley..ALOT..she still to this day can make my day no matter what..and somehow her too always understands my problems..and she def knows how to make my day
wow im really rambleing i just needed to get things out even though i wrote about 10 pages in my journal tonight
AHHAjiasdkqwjh