then i lose my mind
I wish I had more time for myself. I've got so many simple things piling up around the house that I'd like to get done- relaxing things. Books i'm in the middle of, movies I've borrowed from people that I need to watch and return. Rooms to clean. Journal to write in (As in, my written one. So much has happened and I've skipped it all, no time to write). I literally have had barely more than an hour to myself a day the past week or two. It's all work, school, friends, errands, ugh.
I'm putting in my two weeks at my job tomorrow. I can't handle the stress of school and never having a full day off, or a moment to myself. I'd go insane this semester. I've got too much to do and I'm not going to drive myself to insanity. I don't NEED to, I live at home. That won't last for very long, I'm going to take advantage of it for the last time, while I can. I've got enough money until school ends in December and I can get a full-time job for good. I'll just be broke until January. Fuck work for just a few more months of my life before I start working non-stop for 40+ effin years. I've been pretty stressed, confused, and lost lately. Ugh, life and growing up and getting out into the world......
I must say I'm excited to have time for myself after 2 weeks from now. I can actually read a book or watch a movie or sleep more. Concentrate fully on my school projects without having to half-ass them. I hope I start running again everyday because I'm considering doing the 25 mile marathon in January. It'd be a good personal accomplishment, something I've always wanted to say I've done. What better time to train 6 days a week than when I'm not working?
Ugh ramble ramble. I need to sleep. It's 3:21 and I'm not even drunk. Usually drunk people only stay up this late. Oh, long days.....
I'm putting in my two weeks at my job tomorrow. I can't handle the stress of school and never having a full day off, or a moment to myself. I'd go insane this semester. I've got too much to do and I'm not going to drive myself to insanity. I don't NEED to, I live at home. That won't last for very long, I'm going to take advantage of it for the last time, while I can. I've got enough money until school ends in December and I can get a full-time job for good. I'll just be broke until January. Fuck work for just a few more months of my life before I start working non-stop for 40+ effin years. I've been pretty stressed, confused, and lost lately. Ugh, life and growing up and getting out into the world......
I must say I'm excited to have time for myself after 2 weeks from now. I can actually read a book or watch a movie or sleep more. Concentrate fully on my school projects without having to half-ass them. I hope I start running again everyday because I'm considering doing the 25 mile marathon in January. It'd be a good personal accomplishment, something I've always wanted to say I've done. What better time to train 6 days a week than when I'm not working?
Ugh ramble ramble. I need to sleep. It's 3:21 and I'm not even drunk. Usually drunk people only stay up this late. Oh, long days.....