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well well well.
I started my anti-depressants today and birth control thursday.. I also have court thursday against dan. IM scared, nervous. its the Testifying against him that scares me. I have to look at him and tell the judge how bad I got hurt from him . what he said. everything. Ive been so uber depressed latly. I almost want to give up. My family thinks im a idiot and loser. my mom and dad think im on drugs. everything. Its like im slowly losing alot of things. Ive been optomistic for the most part but.. its worn off and im tired of trying to be positve. when everyone around me keeps telling me im a failure.
I have been through one hell of a year. mostly downs, a few ups. a FEW.. like one. two.. not hit three yet.
IM so tired. of being sick and tired.. and sick, and tired. everyday I ask god why im here. Ive yet to recieve my answer.
most of the time I feel everyone is better off without me. its getting really difficult now.
its my life. aint the worst, but damn.. how much can one person handle.
seriously?
and I have to go to court alone, my mom and dad dont want to go. Keith can cuz of work. amy isnt cuz she wasnt called and has to work, and heather has school..
im so alone! gahd.
I need to be saved..
I started my anti-depressants today and birth control thursday.. I also have court thursday against dan. IM scared, nervous. its the Testifying against him that scares me. I have to look at him and tell the judge how bad I got hurt from him . what he said. everything. Ive been so uber depressed latly. I almost want to give up. My family thinks im a idiot and loser. my mom and dad think im on drugs. everything. Its like im slowly losing alot of things. Ive been optomistic for the most part but.. its worn off and im tired of trying to be positve. when everyone around me keeps telling me im a failure.
I have been through one hell of a year. mostly downs, a few ups. a FEW.. like one. two.. not hit three yet.
IM so tired. of being sick and tired.. and sick, and tired. everyday I ask god why im here. Ive yet to recieve my answer.
most of the time I feel everyone is better off without me. its getting really difficult now.
its my life. aint the worst, but damn.. how much can one person handle.
seriously?
and I have to go to court alone, my mom and dad dont want to go. Keith can cuz of work. amy isnt cuz she wasnt called and has to work, and heather has school..
im so alone! gahd.
I need to be saved..