Im a little off track and thats actully perfect!
well.. I Miss you all , very much so.. I miss the talks, the late night shopping at meijers, everything. but IM alright. Well, having a house is a huge thing, a big responsibility, and actully a little unfortunate because we couldn't make the payments, so I now reside in my parents basement. Dan and I will get a apartment in july, or early august, An a apartment will be much easier, and we both went into that house with back debt and it caught up with us. Five months in that house, and now sadly we packed today and today is our first night away from eachother. SLEEPING, I will probably not be able to do.. :( but Im alright.
My job at lovers lane fizzled because they are pricks. so, that is what led to the downslope of financial difficulties. But we are okay. He will pay off his debt, I will with mine, then I start cosmetology school in a week or so. That is a positive thing, and something that will pull me into the status of a hard working individual loving her job.. Dan and I do not live together now, because my dad said he couldn't live in the basement, We were gonna pay 400$$$ a month, but my dad said no.. we just can't afford our house, the payment with utilities, so he is residing at his moms, and I at mine, till we get adjusted. We have been planning the wedding, picking the places, I with the dresses and invitations, It will be o7 like planned we just don't no the exact date. lol. I know I know. Im so Picky. lol.
But being apart will bond us together and make us stronger than ever. We are both inlove, and will love eachother till the day we die. I love being engaged. Its such a feeling of happiness and joy. All the things you either gave up on trying to feel, or never thought you could feel. Ive grown so much as a person, and I have experianced alot with life as an adult and I say, Its harder than shit, but I can do it; And I will. My life has its ups and downs, where Im mad at the world sometimes, but then something happens and it makes me realize, what positive you can receive out of your life, and how life can show you what it really means.
I don't see my moving back into my parents house as me being a failure, because, Im getting on the right track. ya sometimes have to take three steps back to get four steps ahead. And that's just fine as long as you realize what you can do, what you should do and what you are going to do. AND DO IT!
Yea, IM going to miss him being next to me every night and holding me so tight till I fall asleep, and waking up in the morning at 5 am to make his lunch and kiss him goodbye to work,And waiting at the door to greet his arrival upon returning from work. but I will be alright.
you sometimes have to give up the things you love in order to keep the things you love.
we may not get as much time to be with eachother, but its not concrete, not in stone that we can't move back in with eachother when we get our $$$ together, its just a temporary thing, and in life, some things arn't going to be easy, but as long as you are focused, believe and are positive, Your result has to be anything but bad.
Life never goes according to plan, but as long as you know how to deal with the situation, or try to, you will be alright, It may seem unfair, or horrible, but sometimes its just right.
I am not who I used to be, the girl who was so sad and didn't see what she possessed, the one who was always so hurt and mad at everyone, and only talked about how horrible her life was, when really it was learning and growing up, yea, some difficult stuff in there, but that didn't make me. The one who never talked about what she was blessed with even at hard times, the one who relied on empathy from people to know that she had someone or someones that cared. IM not that girl anymore. I was sad at first about this move, but its really okay.
You have to look at what life gives you, it may be a pencil, a thought, a flower outside your window or a little green clover in the grass, Its always there for a reason. a Pencil to write away at numerical problems or in journals, a thought that could one day lead to a cure for a terminal illness, a flower outside, to show you the cycle of life and how short and beautiful it can be , and when that flower gets rained on, it just grows and grows, dosnt back down, not till the existence known. a clover to show you that luck is just around the corner, the little things are what we all forget, and at our saddest we think don't exist. And at our happiest we see , everything..
Life is like sewn design on a pillow, the design on the outside looks simple and pretty and on the inside its a mess with differetn colors and different lengths of yarn,and knots, its exactly what life is, sometimes it looks so easy but when you get around to the detail and look inside, its hectic.
I have grown and learned so much, and I wish that anyone that reads this understands me more now.
So , like I said, Im a little off track, and its actully perfect.
Raechel Jennifer
My job at lovers lane fizzled because they are pricks. so, that is what led to the downslope of financial difficulties. But we are okay. He will pay off his debt, I will with mine, then I start cosmetology school in a week or so. That is a positive thing, and something that will pull me into the status of a hard working individual loving her job.. Dan and I do not live together now, because my dad said he couldn't live in the basement, We were gonna pay 400$$$ a month, but my dad said no.. we just can't afford our house, the payment with utilities, so he is residing at his moms, and I at mine, till we get adjusted. We have been planning the wedding, picking the places, I with the dresses and invitations, It will be o7 like planned we just don't no the exact date. lol. I know I know. Im so Picky. lol.
But being apart will bond us together and make us stronger than ever. We are both inlove, and will love eachother till the day we die. I love being engaged. Its such a feeling of happiness and joy. All the things you either gave up on trying to feel, or never thought you could feel. Ive grown so much as a person, and I have experianced alot with life as an adult and I say, Its harder than shit, but I can do it; And I will. My life has its ups and downs, where Im mad at the world sometimes, but then something happens and it makes me realize, what positive you can receive out of your life, and how life can show you what it really means.
I don't see my moving back into my parents house as me being a failure, because, Im getting on the right track. ya sometimes have to take three steps back to get four steps ahead. And that's just fine as long as you realize what you can do, what you should do and what you are going to do. AND DO IT!
Yea, IM going to miss him being next to me every night and holding me so tight till I fall asleep, and waking up in the morning at 5 am to make his lunch and kiss him goodbye to work,And waiting at the door to greet his arrival upon returning from work. but I will be alright.
you sometimes have to give up the things you love in order to keep the things you love.
we may not get as much time to be with eachother, but its not concrete, not in stone that we can't move back in with eachother when we get our $$$ together, its just a temporary thing, and in life, some things arn't going to be easy, but as long as you are focused, believe and are positive, Your result has to be anything but bad.
Life never goes according to plan, but as long as you know how to deal with the situation, or try to, you will be alright, It may seem unfair, or horrible, but sometimes its just right.
I am not who I used to be, the girl who was so sad and didn't see what she possessed, the one who was always so hurt and mad at everyone, and only talked about how horrible her life was, when really it was learning and growing up, yea, some difficult stuff in there, but that didn't make me. The one who never talked about what she was blessed with even at hard times, the one who relied on empathy from people to know that she had someone or someones that cared. IM not that girl anymore. I was sad at first about this move, but its really okay.
You have to look at what life gives you, it may be a pencil, a thought, a flower outside your window or a little green clover in the grass, Its always there for a reason. a Pencil to write away at numerical problems or in journals, a thought that could one day lead to a cure for a terminal illness, a flower outside, to show you the cycle of life and how short and beautiful it can be , and when that flower gets rained on, it just grows and grows, dosnt back down, not till the existence known. a clover to show you that luck is just around the corner, the little things are what we all forget, and at our saddest we think don't exist. And at our happiest we see , everything..
Life is like sewn design on a pillow, the design on the outside looks simple and pretty and on the inside its a mess with differetn colors and different lengths of yarn,and knots, its exactly what life is, sometimes it looks so easy but when you get around to the detail and look inside, its hectic.
I have grown and learned so much, and I wish that anyone that reads this understands me more now.
So , like I said, Im a little off track, and its actully perfect.
Raechel Jennifer