The beginning of the end
So santa barbara was real fun! we went to a beach and shopped on state street. WE saw the bourne supremacy and i saw napoleon dynamite for the 3rd time :D then we went to the santa barbara zoo and that night my uncle homer and his friend suzzana took me and tess to an incubus concert. it was so fun! they played a lot of their new shit that i hadn't heard much of and i really liked it. I left monday morning. when i got home stefani, brenna and tracy and lauren [crazy Lu] came over. we went to T-bell and saw josh, eric b, and kris m. we had a chat and a biting fest. that night we played b-ball and i watched a CSI marathon on SPIKE tv :) yeahhha! then we slept at tracy's and watched the sixth sense and scream. i hadn't seen any of them so it was fun. this morning i went to meet egyption pettey at anderson. we had a nice deep talk. then i showered and changed my clothes for the first time in 3 days pheww i smelled :p and went to mike o's house. i got faded as fuck and that was around 3 or 4 and i'm still coming down. i almost did some stupid shit that i would've regret and i dissapointed steffers. then i walked to anderson and meet up with stef, josh and kris m. then we walked stefani to manhattan blvd. petey came and so did tony r. now im home and i ate pasta. my 2nd cuz bobby[taz] told me woman digest pasta slower than males do. since it takes longer we gain more weight from it than males do. :p yuck i wish i had a dick. some times i think i'm a boy in a girl's body.. but a boy who likes boys... make sense?
tomorrow school starts.. :( i'm dissapointed and :) happy. there are a lot of people i wish i could just erase [ erase like when you draw! stef and josh and kris!! hehe ] but me and josh were talking and he made a good point; if he had a chance to do shit over he wouldn't he would've left everything how it is. he said it's because it was the right thing to do at the time, just not in the long run. i like that. it works. i think it will be my new motto, my new hero.
P.S:: I think I'm going to be completly sober for a while. i mean more than just not drinking. no smoking no drugs at all. i have to many thoughts cluttering my head as is, so why add mroe stupid shit by getting fucked up. i'm just not into it right now. yes i sound like a hypocrite cause i'm high right now BUT i'm really going to be clean. especially with my emotional shit i've got going on right now. i don't need more. many people don't think i can do it. and they say that's what i always say and i never stick with it. i'm not talking about going sraight edge, just clean... and sober
tomorrow school starts.. :( i'm dissapointed and :) happy. there are a lot of people i wish i could just erase [ erase like when you draw! stef and josh and kris!! hehe ] but me and josh were talking and he made a good point; if he had a chance to do shit over he wouldn't he would've left everything how it is. he said it's because it was the right thing to do at the time, just not in the long run. i like that. it works. i think it will be my new motto, my new hero.
P.S:: I think I'm going to be completly sober for a while. i mean more than just not drinking. no smoking no drugs at all. i have to many thoughts cluttering my head as is, so why add mroe stupid shit by getting fucked up. i'm just not into it right now. yes i sound like a hypocrite cause i'm high right now BUT i'm really going to be clean. especially with my emotional shit i've got going on right now. i don't need more. many people don't think i can do it. and they say that's what i always say and i never stick with it. i'm not talking about going sraight edge, just clean... and sober