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[xjoshx]

i'm reminded of myself 10...15 years ago
i wanted to save people

i wanted to fix

i thought i could fix it all
fix them all
i'd fall in love with a new girl every month
each more broken and imperfect than the one before her
and i'd think to myself

"i can fix her. i can help her."

but is it ever really possible?
it makes me think of therapy

seeing a "mental health professional" if you will

does it really work?

is it ever really possible to "fix" someone?

i'd like to think so
i'd like to think i have it in me to make someone see things in a different way

to help a person stop thinking negative thoughts

whatever they may be

i haven't felt like this in a long time

such a long time

i've had this guise of apathy

i've had this disbelief
now i'm full circle

i thought i knew myself

i thought i knew what i had turned myself into
and now i...................................