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Mar 10, 2006 18:57

night number 2 of balling my eyes out. and i have to be at work in 15 minutes.
great.

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punkrockvirgin March 11 2006, 15:52:56 UTC
Sometimes special words turn out to be just words.

Every girl God has brought into my life has always been beter than the last, if thats any comfort to you.

Was she really the right one for you??? You are a man of God, and a humble servant. I never felt she understood Christianity,, but she just accepted it because of the people she hung with knew what it was all about. You need someone you don't have to coax into going to church and into loving the Lord. Right now you need to focus on running the race Christ has laid out before you, then maybe at some point you'll realize that there is an amazing woman of God running along side of you. You don't need to be dragging someone along in a race, you'll never win and you'll be exhausted.

Love is like war, it is hell.

You weren't created by Brisa. So either you have to decide: 1. I was worthless when we started dating and she told me I was something special, or. 2. You are an amazing guy, who she found amazing, and without her you are still amazing. I think it is the second option. Don't let her words define you, be who you know you are, be who you know the Lord has created yo to be.

Dude, I'm 28 and I don't even have any potential love interests in my life how sad is that? But you know what...? I made this commitment to myself 6 years ago when my life fell apart, when my engagement ended. And I bought a gun to end it all... I decided that I need to be a whole person before I am in a relationship. Going into a relationship with the idea of "you complete me" is dangerous. Sure that other person will have some God given traits that will help us, and comfort us etc. But to know you're lacking and that hopefully this mythical love will solve things is bad. This is a dorky analogy but I love food. I want the love of my life to be the cherry on my sundae. Basically, she is the topper of an already good life. If I, we, can life a life, and love life like this I think breaking up would be so much easier because we are still complete. I know that is so pesimistic but thats the way I am.

Anyways. Writing on here doen't always make perfect sense, especially right after you wake up. Thats why I wanted you to call me.

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xjollyrogerx March 12 2006, 00:01:22 UTC
all good thoughts.

i just want to understand all of this so that i can be at peace with it and move on.

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