gimme greens
Just got out of the water, it was nice finally getting some waves. I want to write it here but I dont really have anything to say. Im going dirt biking with my step dad on thursday and wont be back till monday, hopefully i ride off a cliff or something. I feel big highs and big lows all the time, what goes up must come down I guess. I dont know what im searching for but dont think i'll ever find it. Losing friends, Losing hope, losing my mind hahaha I have 6 more weeks of dui class so I need to start going to AA which sucks. I have 8 More weeks of drug diversion class so I need to start going to NA's which sucks. My drug diversion class teacher is super cool and might not be teaching for much longer because the company merged with a bigger company, hopefully this new one will take credit card because I have not paid for 1 class yet and they wont let me complete or give me the certificate until its payed. I think I may have finally found a job, about fucking time. Dreams are a bummer these days. Johanna got married, which bum's me out for some reason. I hope she is happy though. Bella is in town, I wish I could see her. I was on the phone with my mom yesterday and I heard her say choob, my "heart" melted. I wish they stil lived in town so I could teach her to swim and surf. I feel like I was never really a good older brother and think with her I could have been. I pretty much hate nick, he is just a huge piece of shit and its only a matter of time before he ends up in jail. James and jeff rule but I am never around enough to ever really see and hang with them. blah blah blah i think thats enough.
on a side note I heard im gay? literally.
on a side note I heard im gay? literally.