I am an asshole magnet.

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Oh why must my life be this way. I think I've actually started to believe that it's impossible for me to like anyone. I dont even know what it is. I just can't do it. There are boys and I just don't know, no one is right. I can honestly name like 2 boys that I actually wanted and liked when I had them.(Too bad both of them were huge assholes and made my life emotionally unstable) Everyone else, the idea seems nice and then when it actually happens I FREAK out. I just can't do it. I need to come to terms with that and stop making everyone feel like shit when I come out with the "Oh sorry, just kidding. Don't actually like you". Ah, fuck. Apparently, I'm just an asshole magnet. And I want to get past this.

I need to get away. Im sick of this town, these people, the person I am to these people. I need to go away with a clean slate and start a new life. Well, besides a few people. There are a few people I could stay with forever and be happy. Sure they all drive me nuts sometimes but I just love them and they make my life happy.

Ah I am tired and have to wake up early to go to Northeastern tomorrow. And I am not making sense. Not that anyone really reads this and gives a shit anyway. Which I like because I can write this and not care.

In other news, I love nights in pemaquid.


and I love these girls:


And I especially love brynn when she reads my mind and we laugh together in a room full of people without saying a word.