FUCK!
soo today i woked up at 11:57 and i smoked too huge ass bowls of weed....i had the nastiest tripp ever......i was shaking i had a cold sweat and my heart hurted alot! i went numb too....i remember when i got in the shower i started to sing random songs after i was done i went to my room layed in bed naked and blasted the radio....so i wouldnt hear my heart beat...i was sooo scared...my heart still kind of hurts......well today my dad finally confronted my mom man drama drama drama i was soo angry i told her you know what i was bulimic for a whole year why?!?! because you used to tell me i was jelous of you and i was fat nd i looked like a pig and then i told her i was moving to vegas and i wasnt coming back and she said fine bye go ahead leave i dont care and then i told her see thats the shit that makes me mad you have too much fuckingpride and alll of this is going to make you end up old and alone and i guess thats what you want and im going to pray for you because you obviously need help...then i got out the room and she was telling my dad its your fault....her brother told her that my dad was putting things in our head so we could turn against her....and i got sooo mad! i said you know what fuck your brother ima gewt him i fucking hate him hes going t hell for raping all those kid stupid cunt...man i said soo much shit to her....i feel better now i feel relieved! but yet agan i feel bad...my sister is crying rioght now....and im trying my best not to cry..it hurts me to see that my family will tear apart from each other but if it was man to be like this then fuck it let it be.....